みやこ♥

2009-09-22T19:46:00.003+08:00

Went to blog-hop and got this urge to blog again yay.
Now's EOY period and i think I've been super slack-.-
Anyway I'll soon revive my blog again :D
So just you wait okay!
xoxo
P.S. Japanese oral is like just around the corner (this friday, 4.00 pm)
Butterflies are fluttering in my おなか(sorry, stomach) D:
Super scared especially since I've been neglecting my Japanese for quite some time
Nevermind jiayou joei you can do it!
If you wake up in time, that is!

Trusting someone is giving them the key to break your heart, but trusting them not to.

2009-08-19T20:51:00.000+08:00

yet more often than not, they do

Carina was begging me to like blog and i was saying I had no mood but suddenly i had something to blog about. so ah well, here goes.

It's about something I've been thinking and talking much about these days.
Yea, you know it, walls.
And I don't mean just any wall, I'm talking about the walls around ourselves.
All of us have walls, every one of us.
Don't even try to deny it, the more strongly you protest, the more evident it is that you have walls.
I don't know if they entered the world together with us, as some kind of natural defense mechanism, or after getting hurt, we build the walls, brick by brick, to provide us with some kind of security, to feel safe, but all i know is that we had them for very very long, so long that we forget that they were ever there in the first place, and that sadly, hiding behind walls becomes a habit we're so used to, that we're doing so without even realising, without knowing. We have become creatures who are afraid to show their true faces, creatures who cannot survive without masks.
But I'm not here today to talk about the why we have walls, but about the walls we have.

We all have walls, but each wall of each individual defers from the other, as walls are really just a reflection of who we are, what we are. Walls play an important part in our lives, and almost everything we do are influenced by them.

Like me, I've discovered that my walls are super holey. I let people in easily, and trust people rather readily. I am rather easy to get deep with, you get it? You can talk to me etc. And I also feel that holding on is worth it. And I know, walls are supposed to be shields, but with holey ones, you get injured. Injured easily, but somehow, I can never learn, I am not the kind to lock myself up inside the walls.

Thus I think I'm born to suffer. With walls like mine, I will always get hurt. I will want to believe in the best of people and though I get hurt, I just can't fill up my walls. It just ain't me. So maybe i was meant to be hurt. I get hurt easily, because I trust easily, but I cannot don't trust people, cos I believe that all these hurt might be worth it one day, and I hang on. I know I sound like a fool, but that's just how I am, I can't change. It's frustrating to even myself, but that's the only way, for me to do it, to be myself. Maybe I'm just making myself suffer, but as i once said,

i don't mind
getting hurt or is it i've never been hurt very deeply enough?
i think i believe people too easily
but it's just not me
i think i'm born without walls
maybe it's a deficiency but
i believe that it will be worth it
in the end, i will suffer i think
but i won't feel sorry for myself
i don't give up
cos if i do, i really really give up on everything

Maybe I just don't know how to love myself more. As my walls have many holes, I tend to think that other people's walls are holey too, but more often than not they are not, and there I am locked out. I have many many many people who are important to me, but I don't think I'm as important to them as them are to me. I always get hurt by that, but in the end, I resign myself to it. Cos prolly building walls are a smart move, and I'm just the dumb person who bleieves in happy endings.

Like I was saying, I want to send everyone christmas cards this year during christmas, cos I know that if I get christmas cards, I'll be super happy, so I'm give other people cards, hoping that people will be as happy as me. I'm just trying to make everyone happy, though i know it may not be the case. It may be small and insignificant, but it means alot to me.

So even though I get hurt, but I don't mind, at least I think I can survive, maybe I'm born to be the one to absorb all the hurt. But at least, the people who are dear to me, won't get hurt. For them at least, it would be worth it.

So how are your walls like? Have you ever tried looking?

2009-08-18T10:36:00.001+08:00

okay I'm here blogging in the middle of ICT class.. Mainly movitated by Rachel lol.
I haven't uploaded the ungalm photos! D: Feel damn what the hell, but yea, i've been busy
There's like Chinese debate later in the afternoon while my classmates are happily going off for excursion...
lalala i went to ikea over the weekends and it's super nice(!) Love the food. Gonna bring carina there one day. I shall go home and blog a more complete post cos I've realised that I'm rambling...

空は広くてきれいで、見ませんか。

2009-08-10T12:30:00.001+08:00

Feeling super gong now. Just woke up and had brunch cos yesterday had gathering Saw brenda and vivien hahhah and they were like late for 1& 1/2 hours!(We were supposed to meet @ Auntie Pauline's house @ 11am and my dear brenda toh woke up @ 11am.) How time-conscious lol. But the funniest thing was that Vivien Toh cutely (treasure this moment kay i don't usually call you cute!)went to wake up @ 8.22 am in the morning to take the pledge! Ain't she patriotic?:D) LALALA basically slacked the whole being couch potato and i went crazy demolishing like one whole box of those baby biscuits ya know, those with pretty sugar icing on top one? I'm sure everyone has eaten before and I simply heart it! I kept eating and eating and eating D: Sure getting FATTER and FATTER and FATTER. Yah watched alot of tv, including the slight porny (LOL) 18 grams of love on okto haha super funny derek stared @ us and was like, "is it porn?" but be rest assured it's not lah, i don't look like the kind do i? dads played mahjong until quite　late and we went home like @ 2am today (but this is no mean feat, i mean we went home @ 4am in the morning before once -.-) so...yea. I just woke up.

Am trying to do the shitty powerpoint thing urgh. It's killing me D: Today I think I'll go to like had dinner with uncle Bankat again lalala so prolly no time to blog so I'm squeezing a short post here lest people like The Fat Brain Vivien Toh come and accuse me of not posting. But This is basically pointless and I'm just sprouting rubbish. OH but i'll give you some advice which is to come quite often again especailly my dear playmates of 207 cos I'm going to post super many unglam photos of you guys! See how much you have changed since last year! HAHA ever been exposed before one kay those photos. And no I won't cover the faces but only after you have viewed them, I will like respect your wishes and cover up or sth so if you want to catch how others look like, do come before they are all covered up.

And don't get angry okay, it's all in the name of fun! You can post unglam photos of me too if you want.(carina kam just already done that)

痞子英雄, episode 19 ♥

是谁告诉我我们一定会有以后；又是谁最后先放开手?

2009-08-07T15:52:00.000+08:00

just a really short post before I return back to full-time blogging.

I've realised that my life is very flawed.
And no, that's wasn't a complaining tone.
But yes, it is. I mean my life being flawed.
I know many of you know of my problems, and are trying to help me in your own way, thanks but sometimes I'll feel bad yea. I don't look down on myself though cos I'll just tell myself, if I can't get it now, I'll be sure to be able to get it next time and much much much more. I'll just have to wait. You may say just accept how it is, but for me, I'm not going to. No, I don't like it, won't accept it the way it is and will change it, have to.

I've realised that I owe many people a lot. Without the help of many people, I really don't know how my life is going to be. Without them, I cannot begin to imagine. So when I grow up, I'll repay all of it. Thank you everyone, what I cannot do for you now, I will repay next time even more, because you really do light up my life. I guess I'm blessed to know you and thanks for being there.

I do know many of the people I need to thank won't be reading this but I really mean what I say. So when I grow up, please still be there for me to repay. I know some debts are so great I cannot begin to repay but at least let me do something for you. I know when I can repay you, you will say that only my presence will be needed. But I won't ever forget. Help is something, but getting it when you really need really raises the value. I cannot begin to put my feelings into words. I feel indebted, but in a happy sort of way. It's like these small, small things that all of you do link me to you, and though you feel it's nothing, it really warms my heart. I want to do things for you, so please wait. I cannot do it now, but in the future I will.

I know I was born with nothing in this world, all that I ever want I'ld have to get it myself. But I'm not blaming anyone, maybe this is a blessing in disguise. Like what my mom said, she cannot give me many things, but she will give me education, so next time I can go and get the things I want. What I wasn't born with, I'll get it myself.

And thanks sherena, charmaine, lydia and michelle. You've been trying to help and I have noticed and it warms my heart though you should not do it anymore. Thanks for all the treats thought I cannot give you back now, but I will next time. I'll treat you all to dinner!

天青色等烟雨，而我在等你。

2009-05-27T16:24:00.000+08:00

Mom went for her surgery @ Tuesday.
Slipped a jiayou note to her.
Tried not to look so nervous, told myself that it was all going to be alright, it's nothing serious really, just taking out lumps (but every surgery has RISKS you idiot), really nothing to be scared of(then why in the world are you feeling like that), everything's just gonna stay the same.
Went home.
She was sleeping.
Seemed okay.
Didn't eat her dinner though.
And she was real tired.
Real tired.
-
Got even worse today.
She vomitted and vomitted.
Heart-breaking sound to hear.
You will hear the 'urh-urh' sound of her trying to get rid of whatever was in her throat and followed by an even worse sound 'WHOOSH' of the solids landing in the sink/toilet bowl.
Pale face.
Didn't even had to strength to walk.
Cooked noodles for her. She ate only abit, not touching the meat and went to vomit again.
Washed the dished in silence.
When my mom falls sick, she really falls sick.
And this is one of those times.
Even walking around the house was tough and energy-draining for her.
Dad told her to stop taking the pain-killers.
Mom's like allergic to some kinds of pain-killers and sometimes even those which she had taken before and was perfectly fine after that, she could develop allergies.
Hope that's the cause of the problem.
--

Today had Chem Olympiad. Last session ever with mrkuo D:
Everyone was like so sad and we had to (HAD TO) finish off with a quiz.
Was hoping that he would not make another farewell speech, didn't think I would be able to make it.
Then he brought this teacher in and said, "I believe I have to introduce someone to you guys......"
That's when my heart started sinking.
I only heard the new teacher say sentences less than the fingers I had on one hand and I knew it -- there would be no more jokes ever again after he left. No more ahbeng-like teachers standing in front of the class, telling us stupid analogies that (miraclously) made some sense after (quite) awhile if you thought about it and that included 500g of pineapple and 500g of cucumbers. No more giving us the WHAT-THE-HELL look and the what-the-hell look. No more teacher that keeps telling us and insisting that if we don't understand, it's fine and we're not really supposed to anyway but just try our best and if we walk out of that room looking lost, it's fine. No pressure. No teacher asking us what is your next upcoming blocktest and sniggering and putting on his 幸灾乐祸 expression when we told him that it was maths and exclaiming, "MATHS!" and grinning away as if all his christmases have all come at once. And then letting us skip one session to go home and revise. No more teacher saying, "Okay, you don't believe me right. Come, I search for you to see. I got proof one okay!" whenever he told us some incredible/unbelieveable thing and we gaped at him. No more teacher repeatedly telling us to not TO NOT mix-up Avogadro and avocado. (They are two very different things believe me, one's the founder of the Mole concept and one's a fruit) No more smart-ass jokes. No more repeating, "I know that not many of you have done the chemistry module yet with the exception of one person in this room." (THAT's ME bytheway) No more, "Yes yes joei you've heard that all before but please just bear with me" whenever he told some lame thing that got the class laughing until they were almost on the floor and I was like (-.-) cos I've heard that all before. No more. Now I almost believe that I will sit there and listen to all his lame jokes for as long as he wants, as long as he won't leave. There'll be no chance for me to do it anylonger after this.

And that's only for Chem olympiod. For class, i don't know where to start from and how to start (when he leaves)
All I can say is this:
ALL PCCG LESSONS WILL TURN INTO CHINESE LESSONS MOST INDEFINTELY.

xoxo

2009-05-25T21:33:00.002+08:00

Yay I've decided to come back and once again i think no one's gonna come here anymore and that makes me sad and not want to post anymore but ah well to sovle this never-ending problem i shall post :D

Will be changing a new blogskin rather soon or at least i hope (the blogskin is the main reason for all the delays in posting) Even min hui has gotten a new one!

This week is sabbitical week and at first I was quite happy (no more lessons!) then i realised how boring sabbiticals can be. And it's not as if I had fond memories of sabbs in sec one (FYI I was like thrown into Chinese Opera cos I didn't go and choose anything and the old teacher there was super enthu - he obviously thought that the whole class of us had extreme interests in Chinese Opera -.-) but this year's make me want to seriously rot away in a corner. Renewable energy + Chinese Lyrics Writing = God knows how boring! I have like absolutely no idea how am I going to get through this week man D: Feel totally like ponnning the whole week or sth. Feeling like punching all those who got chemistry everywhere (mrKUO!) at least can be entertain by his swearing and everything...next term won't even get to hear it at all D:

Posted on class blog on what we should like give him for farewell. I think we really should have a BBQ lor. There's more chance of him showing up (we can like say er if he's not there, no one can light up the BBQ then all 34 of us would just like stand there and starve to death) He'll prolly use the chance and go show off to us his cooking skills HAHA. I don't want to think about how school would be like without seeing him there, doing some typical-mrkuo thing that only he can do. He said that he would drop by to see how we're doing though but everyone's going to really miss him. HAHA they suggested making a bear for him. We should do a card for him with all our names there to remember him by. Just have to force him to take it back.

Nowadays feel tired darn easily. Also dk why. Ohyah forgot to mention about how i screwed up my japanese powerpoint. You know people forget lines then they look at the powerpoint to refresh memory right? But in my case, it only served to like er confuse me cos in the end, thanks to the ever helpful powerpoint slides i missed out on a whole chunk of my speech (!) D:

Today forgot to bring thermometer. Didn't even know have to bring.(Apparently there was this announcement on Friday but then again i was @ band and you know what happens upthere- we talk and talk and talk, then when all the people below start clapping, we all clap and we would go "Eh why are they clapping uh?" "Don't know leh.""Aiyah, just clap lah." Then we'll happily clap along with the rest of the school and go back to chatting again.) On normal days I wouldn't even have to worry cos i always put it in my bag but i changed to my crumpler then yah. And in order not to make mrkuo pissed, i went down to GO, feebly fibbed that i lost mine and bought a new one @ 5 bucks! GRR...All for that person, mrkuo's anger is like worth 5 bucks! D:

Keye Cheng didn't come today. Get well soon okay!You'll be able to play your beloved trumpet in no time once you recover but don't come to school unless you're 100% fine okay? If not, there's no need to force yourself to come to school for that will make it worse. JIAYOU!

My mom's going to have an operation tmr. To remove the two lumps in her breast, remember i talked about it? Lucky it's beign but she still has to remove them yea. Too bad I cannot go with her but her operation's like damn early in the morning 7 am. Shall write her a JIAYOU card :D But after the operation she must rest well so i'll be eating packed food for like the whole week which is like urgh, given the quality of food at the food court. But it's okay JIAYOU MOM!

Now off I have to go and study the chem olympiad stuff for wednesday! bye! till next time!

自导自拍自演——最终也只剩下我，不是吗？

2009-05-13T21:21:00.002+08:00

I'm like super super happy now cos Siling姐 is buying me the bag that i wanted hahah. To show me she sent MMS to my mom's phone cos mine cannot view idk why then one MMS fail so she gave up and video-called my phone for me to see. And I liked it lol but I think hers prettier but you know cannot be copycats what! But it's still rather cute! Siling姐 says that the bag she checked got some faults so she ordering one which is coming next week! It's my mom's birthday present to me! But darn cheap lor, after 20%discount (her friens got idk either), is only like 20+ bucks! :D Can't wait for it to come! Lol she's buying another one for herself again!

Hmm...I'm so looking forward to June Hols. Finally can relax. Now is like hell D:
Here's some thing random lolx:

Events I can't wait for:
East Coast park- with carina, yirong and min hui i think! we gonna go look @ the sea.
Band Outing- venue to be confirmed! 22 June (?)
Malaysia, Penang - popo's house going for like 9 days? Starting from 6 june :D imsogonnaloveit.
Malacca trip with class - er wait i think that it's cancelled due to swine flu is it?
Go Tampines 1 ( and Tampines Mall while I'm at it) - found out that got direct bus 969 from my house to there yay! I heard it's really really nice! :D excited excited dk how long never go shopping le (-.-) woah man I'm starting to sound like a cavewoman who stays under a piece of rock O:
IKEA - whoo the food there is the best best best! $1 hot dog bun :D
Jurong Point - I suppose I owe May an outing? cos last year was supposed to go out together but didn't D:
Far East: Go search for flip-flops cos Jiayi say there got nice ones i think.
@ the movies with vivien and brenda: Was talking about it for like damn long but in the end always never go D: Ye gods, please have some nice Japanese (yes! Japanese) movies during the hols.
Brenda will bring me to buy contacts! :D
Baking lessons : With my mom! I shall bake many many cookies and give to alot of people! I wanna learn to cook also! (Hopefully my family won't get food poisoning and end up having to eat hospital food instead)
Section outing : Zoo/Night Safari/Toy Museum (cool! i wanna go!)/michelle mentioned cycling(?)/Theo said maybe go some farm place in Singapore. I remember that i went sometime when i was young and it was fun! I caught a baby chick fluff fluff.
Singapore Flyer: Maybe? I forgot who asked me.But I don't think i got patience enough to wait for it to you go one round (-.-)
207 Class outing- where should we go? I remember last year's was super fun! Me and carina got lost @ East coast (......)
Class Chalet - Are we having? As farewell to mr kuo? Hope we have, last year's with sherena, michelle, yirong, yuhan, carina, hanzhi, charmaine,wingyan, hui peng etc (forgive me if i didn't put your name down!) was quite fun! loves.
6A gathering - Dk if having, only started to ask D: hope we having cos last year was supposed to have but then it was cancelled i don't know why. Miss everyone!
Clique gathering - Maybe we're having? Grace, yuwen they all say should go out one day during june hols but yet to set the date. loves loves loves.
Oh and i so need to go to the library someday!

And I'm feeling so bored now ):

MAMA DAY

2009-05-10T21:06:00.001+08:00

Saw this somewhere and thought that it was cute!

Went out with Uncle Bankat & Co. for Mother's Day. Their family + our family = 8 people
Went to this 6-month-old restaurant Sakura for Buffet @ Admiralty Park which was like relativly near. Idk where to start from but there's like so many photos so i'm not posting today.Maybe next weekend (?) 'cos no time to do it tmr though there's no school cos going to charmaine's house this time to redo the newscast thing! Hope this tyr would be successful!But yea i'll surely post them all up!

Happy Mother's Day
and I got mine a flower.

要长大了哟！

2009-05-05T20:28:00.002+08:00

Today is ONE SPECIAL SPECIAL DAY!
My dear vivien toh has grown up!
She's thirteen now, that's a great age!:D
Though couldn't tell her happy birthday personally, but nevermind, I know that she knows that I wish her all the best BEST best okay!
And i bought her present already (together with dear brenda's overover-dued one!) just that cannot pass to them yet D:) MISS THEM!

so Miss Vivien Toh,
HAPPY BIRTHDAY! <3

Hhaa, this post shall be dedicated to her :D

2009-05-04T10:39:00.001+08:00

To all those who are still faithfully coming to this almost-dead blog:
GREAT NEWS! I'll be updating soon like after my last and final maths block test on Tuesday! So stay tuned! Should have quite a number of posts! :D

And kudos to clarissa for keeping my tagboard alive! (Or sort of -.-)
Too bad that no one likes me so cannot be bothered to tag me lah! so sad right? D:
In any case, so srry for not updating etc etc etc nonsense blah blah.
A further note : I'msogonnadiefordramaD:

TO VIVIEN :
what's nur er? o.o

Till then, bye! <3

[EDITEDZX]
MATHS BLOCKS ARE OVER FINALLY!
WE ARE FREE! B)
SUPER HAPPY NOW! FREE FREE FREE!
BLOCKS OVER AND THAT CAN ONLY MEAN ONE THING:

HOLS ARE COMING! And I cannot wait for hols to come!
butsiasarestillkillingme):

一个人还能有什么心痛的理由。

2009-05-03T20:40:00.002+08:00

Went to Keye Cheng's house today to do our newscast for LA SIA. Decided to meet up @ 9am so can get it done over and faster with.Thus met up with carina @ like 8.10. Or at least that was what i did. Miss Carina Kam however smartly sent me this sms @ 8.10:

carina:
Ay.. Don't kill me ah. I just left house. Heh.

Ta-da. LOL. hhah but luckily she wasn't ~~too~~ late so we reached Bukit Banjang Plaza (BBP for short) rather on time so yepp she wasn't roasted alive.
Walked around BBP and I got rather jealous cos it's like all food there. Rows and rows of stores selling yummy food. Especially those damn mouth-watering 的, i.e. Mr Bean (Pearly Soya Milk!)/Naked Fish Express (Fin 'n' Feathers!)/Ah Wang Taiwanese Food (Super big chicken cutlet with curry powder! Super sinful!)/Subway/Starbucks/Long John Silvers/Mos Burger. And these are only examples! D: I'm starting to wish I lived there. Oh and carina hadn't taken her breakfast so we walked around looking for her meal. Ah Wang was closed (hey it's like 9am plus in the morning hello!), thus she bought some breakfast (toast with chicken and ham and egg I suppose) that looked super yummy (jealous me again!) but was super oily at least according to her. Keye Cheng and Hanzhi came and we went to the supermarket there. Couldn't decide on the drink so didn't buy and carina wouldn't let go off a party packet of Calbee Barbeque Chips so she got that. Then I couldn't resist the temptation and bought Pearly Soya Milk @ Mr Bean. I was like what the first customer they served :D

Proceeded to KC's house. Charmaine caught up with us on the way so yea everyone was present. For the newscast, we had to film many scenes then for some scenes not everyone needed to be present so we filmed those that carina had to be inside 的first 'cos she had to go for Learning Lab later on in the afternoon. It was darn retarded and hilarious filming the interview scenes. I was the reporter (badhairday, thus wore a cap), carina was the negro servant/worker and charmaine was the mean old white lady. Then to fit the role, carina had to wear an apron (the white home econs one, what else) and pretend to be hanging clothes. charmaine wore this towel to cover her shorts (you don't see any mean old white ladies walking around in fbts do ya but then again not many walk around in towels either but that was the best that we could do) and this towel had this enormous red flowers printed on it. And then imagine all this taking place in the void deck. HAHA. I bet the passers-by were trying hard not to laugh/stare too much @ this bunch of random-looking girls in weird get-ups.

But the funniest was still the scene where I(Jim Marten, police warden) shot charmaine (Tom Robinson, escaping prisoner) it was so funny! Retook many times then poor charmaine had to run/pretend to escape for so many times. And I had to shoot her like so many times also. I used carina's brother's gun (everyone remember? the one she took and started shooting random people?) then for sound effects used the gun shot sounds from carina's phone courtesty of carina's brother I swear one day I'm going to like master the sound effects with the actions and go around scaring people with my phone!

Then there was this scene of the tribute where everyone had to crowd around the coffin of Tom Robinson (which is actually this table) and cry like all hell broke loose while carina read out the tribute.It was like so funny (go on you try to huddle around a table and then pretend to cry your hearts out while waiting for someone finish reading out a tribute to some fictional character i bet you you will surely laugh) and we were like dk whether laughing or crying damn incredible cans. I had to bite my lip to keep from exploding with laughter.

Then it was like 12 noon already carina had to go to LL and the rest of us said bye to her and went off back to BBP to have lunch. I wanted to have Ah Wang/Naked Fish Express but they say too unhealthy don't want so i followed them but i didn't wanna have KFC instead so we went off to mos burger with dear hanzhi trying for the first time i think. I had my usual terayakki rice burger, hanzhi got an ebi one and charmaine got a chilli hotdog bun. Poor keyecheng didn't eat any thing cos she was sick and had no appetide ): Get well soon okay. Darn not used to seeing you not eat, i think cos i always watch you and carina eat and eat and eat. Speaking of which my bro, adrian, also sick D: Having fever and the worse thing is that he got exams on wednesday. Everyone's getting sick...... ):

Went back to KC's house and carina sms-ed that she went in late for LL @ 1:27 pm cos she waited darn long for the bus. Luckily for her, her teacher didn't scold or anything. We slacked cos we started watching CSI:New York and it was so addictive that we just watched for one whole hour. After that did the remaining newscast. KC and Hanzhi were the news reporters then we (me and charmaine) asisted them. Went home earlier though cos having japanese ca3 D: SO DAMN SAD. And it's LISTENING AND COMPRE and I happen to suck loads @ the former one (-.-)

My brother's still having fever ): And it's like raging D: Get well soon bro!

感觉好无力，好无奈，却不想给你看到我脆弱的一面，不想向你承认我有多想你。

2009-04-27T22:38:00.002+08:00

I REALLY REALLY WANT A NEW CAMERA!

Mine's old until (....) And the megapixels only like 3.6 (?!)

I want something like....

Or a SLR!!!!!!

HAHA if i had a darn good camera, I'll probably go around taking random candid shots of everyone! (And help expand the stalker company aptly named Kam&Chang)

That would be so cool and yet unfortunately is never going to happen D:

Really good cameras cost like ohgods (at least to me, I know that many people are like much richer than me) so I'll have to wait till I grow up and buy it myself but by that time, the cameras will be much much better than even this! cool.

Japanese ca3 was horrible. I was like so horrified by the paper. It was almost like the end-of-years! DD: And there are still blocks....

相爱时，从不忘记我爱你，失恋后，却说不出谢谢你，对不起。

2009-04-26T22:20:00.000+08:00

Today went crazy already (-.-)

My whole freaking family jog from my house (woodlands) to ChongPang Market (Yishun).
The whole distance is like erm, 3.6 km (?!) Tell me that's not suicide please. I remember that the last time yes there was a last time this is not the first time (!!!) we ran the same route was when I was like in p6 (?). I remembered it really clearly cos I posted it on my old blog which was opened when i was p6 and closed on that very same year due to some problems (okay I'm digressing quite abit but yea) so yea i madly ran that distance!

This time was much better than the previous time though, the first time I ran, sweat was practically raining down my back (-.-) This time was better and once again, I'm in the lead :D. My dumbo brother went to try and chiong with me for the first 200+ km. He was sprinting like siao cos he want to be in front of me. He kinda suffers from this ailment that makes him very 不爽 whenever he sees anyone i repeat anyone walking/running/jumping in front of him so yea. But he's more of a sprinter so I just let him be and later on his stamina just died away and I ran ahead of him. Felt so damn 爽.

But he run until his whole face turned ashen and he looked as though he's going to puke any minute now. Went to Chong Pang for dinner (DUH!) and the food's yum! Much better than admiralty food court's you hear me?

In any case, Monday's tomorrow so I'm having Sunday Blues thinking about how it's a brand new week ): And to really rub the salt in, I'm having the dreaded Japanese CA3 D: Wish me luck people, I don't want to go to heaven before my time.

原来我也会那么寂寞，那么需要一个肩膀的依靠。

2009-04-22T20:11:00.004+08:00

Have nothing much to post today so just random (?)

HAHA i wanted to post about this for very long le. It's like damn retarded you know. Paste one on every classroom door (-.-) Like the hawker Centre like that. And just like in the hawker centre, everyone just hecks it. I remember on the first day when it was pasted on our classroom room everyone was like HUH?! What the heck is it?! Min Hui was particularly violent that day too, threatening to tear it down cos it ~~ani paikua~~ ~~(dialect for so ugly to look at)~~
[EDIT] Hers truly amended me saying that she actually said walau ani paikua ga wa tia lou lai. (dialect for what the hell so ugly to look at, take it down!) [/EDIT]
I remember laughing like siao. Hmpf, but i'ld rather that we got an E lor, look prettier cos we can say E for Excellence what. I remember last year in 107, we got like 3 'E's in a row and yls wanted to get us to clean up our classroom then the whole class was like E's very good what E for excellence and we were so proud of it. C for what? Competent? Bleh.

The other day vera used the marker and wrote over it, turning the C into A then yls was fooled by it and came in to praise us about it rofl.

Oh I had syncronised-stomache with Chia today. She ran to toilet before me. Idk what happened to me. Like got a lot of air in my stomach. Pain like hell. It felt bad throughout the whole thing but I don't reckon that I had eaten anything wrong :|

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO RIE! sorry couldn't help you eat much of your cake cos of my stomache (-.-)

To those who tagged on my tagboard:

Thanks for those who were concerned about my mom. Xie xie! The report's not out yet but I'm hopeful. Thanks again! You guys really lifted my spirits! And yes, I'll cherish my life and live it to the fullest. It's great to have friends in times of need.

Ani paikua!

连个微笑都觉得好勉强。

2009-04-20T22:47:00.002+08:00

I'm definitely feeling the effects of global warming even if you're not. We cut down all the forests so now we've gotta pay for it by sweating it out. It's damn hot these days haven't you realised? I'm gonna have a heat stroke someday I tell you.

Today I died for Jap Ca3. it's like ohmygod, utter failure (?)

There's nothing much interesting today except ah for the formation of Sleep Club. Mr Nick Ng was like trying to guess our ccas by our faces haha and he failed miserably. Apparently Celia has a Chinese Dance look heh. Anyway we were confusing him by saying all sorts of fake ccas then Keye Cheng told him that the three of us (Keye Cheng, Carina and me) were rather hard to tell cos we don't look like any (thought according to Carina, she herslef has the Green Club look) and Mr Nick Ng used his stick and pointed at me and said, "This one Sleep Club for sure." I was so mortified, I mean like do I look very sleepy? Perhaps cos of my hair but whatever. Then Nick Ng was very inspired by the Sleep Club thing and I was supposedly the President cos it got inspired by me (?)

Sleep Club - where during cca hours, we have a special rooms all filled with beds and we uhm....... sleep. When you ask for the teacher-in-charge (probably Mr Nick Ng - he was so enthu about this), then the student would be like, "Oh.......sleeping." Then during CCA meetings, everyone would be half-asleep. Yawning would be widely encouraged.And instead of cca jackets, we would have blankets instead. So how?Any one interested? Sleep Club is opened to all.

H-A-H-A. Nothing else so bye!

看着他们，想起那时的我们。

2009-04-17T19:37:00.003+08:00

Today was an ahem day.

We didn't get to watch the Chinese Drama idk why. Apparently there was this miscommunication or some sorts. Then we had PCCG lessons. Mr Kuo talked to us about Pornography. Actually male teachers not allow to teach this but since when as he ever cared about rules & regulations? Apparently there was this woman who held the world record of having sex with the most number of men in 3 hours -- 227 if I remembered correctly O.O I don't see how is that possible but we're getting out of point here. So there was Mr Kuo with the powerpoint slide which had the big heading of PORNOGRAPHY behind him and he was talking very animatedly so people passed by had on this look of amusement. We were laughing so hard then Mr Kuo went and openly showed his defiance, "Why? Anything wrong meh?" in his usual ah-beng style. It was seriously very funny.

He went on and cut into the science period for like 10/20 plus min and only gave out the Chem Papers at the end. In the end I got 38/40 :D whopee.

The rest of the day just passed by like that. I felt sneezing and felt feverish but I think I'm okay now. JieLin , sorry if I snapped at you. Idk what happened to me today :|

Talking about Culture lessons, the teacher very funny I tell you. Carina burst out laughing when she saw he walk into the classroom she say he walk and shake his butt at the same time. And boy you should watch him eat bananas! HAHAHHHAHAHA. I'm laughing as I type this.

And you guys must take care of yourselves okay cos you never know what's going to happen to you next minute. Recently my grandma in penang was hospitalised cos she kept vomitting and the condition was so worrying that my mom almost set off for malaysia but the doctor did a check-up and said that it was sort of a flammation so not that bad. But it was still such a big scare.

Remember my that auntie who got breast cancer just this year? Her dad later on diagnosed with anal cancer and left only months to live (and that's an over-optimistic view already). He was a very healthy old man, no hypertension, no diabetes, no illness that had usually besieged elders like him and then he suddenly find that when he go to the toilet got blood coming out so had a check-up. The GP immediately refered him to a hosptial and there he was told that he had cancer. In the terminal stages. Suddenly, just like that. Can you imagine? My poor auntie.

And just today, my mom went to check her uterus cos she used to have some problem with it then recovered but have to go for check-ups. and the doctor found this highly-suspicious lump on her breast and tomorrow she has to go to Mount Everest Hospital to get a more thorough check up. I don't know how to react. Praying hard that it is nothing, just nothing.

Dear gods, please not.

不哭，就是勇敢吗？

2009-04-16T19:11:00.002+08:00

The clouds are overhead

Today I got back my geog results.
20/25.
And I was disappointed. Had thought that I could have done better. But yea, at least an A1.
But this has got me very ominous about my Chem results which we're getting tomorrow! 2nd period too! (A-H-H-H) Cross my fingers that it's gonna be okay. Isn't it?

Tomorrow we will be watching Chinese Drama Show for PCCG lesson according to May! ~~wee~~woo~ I wanna watch! Their script like super super nice! -admires-

Something happened today. It's what we have already known and dreaded it's coming but it still came. And this is only the first ripple. I don't want it to happen but it will happen and when it happens, the world will literally explode (only due to no plate tectonics!) And the worse thing is that I cannot do a single shit about it. Stop okay. I don't want anything of this unhappiness to come and make everyone unhappy. Why must things come to this stage? Why? No one wins out of this. Everyone just gets unhappy. Smiles will disappear. And that's all that this thing does! Nothing good will come out of it so why are you doing it? I hate this.

I'm sitting on the hedge, peeking over the sides and trying not to fall off. Trying to keep my balance.

谁也不能永远陪谁。

2009-04-11T20:32:00.001+08:00

I shall recap on the events that happened!

Good Friday
HURRAY!
Went out the whole day today though we had no intention to at first.
Uncle (a very close family friend of mine and for reference's sake shall just call him Uncle) brought us out early in the morning to have breakfast together. We (Uncle, Auntie and 思玲姐, Dad, Mom, Adrian and me) set off for Ang Mo Kio Hawker Centre. Remember that place where it was burnt down like 2 years ago in a fire? Ah but it's now a temporary market and they are rebuilding the real place now. It has a lot of memories cos last time ahbor (my nanny when i was just a wee baby) always brought me down there to have breakfast and I used to always cry the loudest there haha. I love that place! And the food's really nice too! :D

Met ahbor there. Missed her alot! I still remember how much she doted on me last time. I would be very guai for a week so she would buy me a row of KinderEgg! Anyone here used to love it too? It's this chocolate egg thing then you eat it eat, in the middle there will be a toy inside and I simply heart it! Ahbor kept saying that I got much skinnier and tried to brainwash me to stop losing weight ahah. But I don't think so lor. Still got so much fats D: But I really love her alot! Sometimes I wish that my mom hadn't quit her job and then I could continue living with ahbor heh.

Had a really nice breakfast! Carrot cake + Soya Bean Milk + Pancake/Waffle ♥♥♥
The Soya Bean Milk Stall got C for its cleanliness grade but everyone just heck it and buy cos it's really nice! Did I mention how tasty food there is or at least I think unless it's my imagination(?!) but whatever. Chatted loads with AhBor haha she's like my good old friend like that. Listened to the auunties talk talk talk. Renald (AhBor's nephew, my sort of childhood friend) and JiaLing (AhBor's daughter) came down too! Long time no see! And JiaLing's still so skinny and I'm so jealous! haha that day her boyfriend went to her house and 拜访 AhBor with like 3 buckets of KFC chicken! Good move! :D JiaXin (Jialing's elder sis) was like wah, how come he know how to get into the mother-in-law-to-be's good books uh? rofl and apparently he's quite 帅 ( until AhBor need to put tissue infront of her mouth to stop from drooling hahah) And baka Renald's like so freaking tall 了): Much taller than me. He used to fantasise when he would grow taller than me and I was like eat two more sacks of rice first lah but now's his time to laugh at me but I swear I'm still growing. Growing but just slowly okay!

Went to listen to my dad and 思玲姐 talk about estates and housing cos wedding bells gonna ring in the near future for her. She and her boyfriend going to get married but looking for house first so she say about the houses etc but housing really very expensive nowdays Don't dare to think when it's my turn to buy a house, how $$ it would cost. I want a house right next to the sea!!!

Uncle went to buy two tiny crabs @ $1 each for my brother and I was so horrified. I find the crabs damn gross. Actually I see no point in keeping pets that you cannot bonding with i.e. fishes and crabs i mean like i would like to see you try to stroke a crab on its shell. I prefer doggies and hamsters :D

Stayed @ the market from 9am - 11am
Uncle who likes to take a walk with nature after eating brought us to this place where got a lot of monkeys! We kept stopping to look at them. Took many photos but all with 思玲 so yah waiting for her to pass to me then I'll post them up. The monkeys really look damn funny. We wind down the windscreen only then they stand up and beg for food. We didn't have any fruits i.e. bananas with us so Uncle threw a mint candy to them as a prank. one of them ate it and i think cos it's spicy it immediately go and tear some grass nearby and began eating rofl. We even saw one big monkey scratching the fur of a smaller monkey and then it saw a bug and directly ate it our of the other monkey's fur! EWWW!

Went to a nearby beach but got no sand 的 ): Rocky and grassy kind of beach. But the sea is still so pretty and the weather was very fine so we sat under a tree next to the sea and chatted (again) then they go talk about white hair 思玲 (she's 27) say she got a few strands 了 then my mom got so worried and asked us to check her hair for her and sure enough we plucked out like 20+ strands of white hair haha. random. my mom was so upset.

then we went to Thompson Plaza randomly. Chiong-ed for the Yamaha there but no collarpin ): seems like i really need to make the trip to essence one of these days!

Went to the FairPrice there which was awesomely big and filled with food! Uncle, Auntie and Dad bought alot of food for tomorrow's tom yam steam boat hurray! Walked around with 思玲. She wanted to buy some posters for her students (She teaches mentally-retarded/Down syndrome-stricken students in special schools) but too exp so didn't.

Got hungry so all of us went into this random hawker centre to have our 'lunch' @ 4pm. But ohmygod the char kuay teow was so damn freaking nice, not too oily, and the portion was just nice! No wonder they were in featured in an article of the newspaper before; it's super delicious. All of us had one plate each yum.

Eat eat eat then we had no where more to go so went to Uncle's house which was a stone's throw away from my house in any case and we slacked and ate some raspberries and blackberries we bought @ the supermarket which was freaking exp and the raspberries tasted damn weird (-.-)
Read 思玲's books. She got like freaking many many books and all I love 的! Borrowed a few. I swear next time when I grow up I'll like buy many books to keep also! ♥
Saw her pmk (puremilk) clothes anf they were like so freaking pretty. Saw her bag too and it was so freaking pretty. She told me that she wanted to buy that for my birthday but out of stock. I seriously want it so she say in May new stock coming in then she bring me go buy hurray! Baggie here I come!

Later she went out with her boyfriend so for dinner we went out with Uncle and Auntie to Holland V for dinner. Uncle wanted to eat Crystal Jade so we went. The food actually quite nice! Got this white crisp fried fish thing yum and the roasted duck (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
Introduced to the adults frolick the yoghurt ice-cream and even they love it which goes to show how nice Frolick is! You guys should go try it!

Walked around Holland V for abit. Is In the shop quite cool got nice denim shorts heh. And I saw a couple of pretty dresses but I'm not of the age to wear lol. Went home @ like 12 and slept.

Saturday
Forgot to go for Chinese Compo tuition (-.-)
At night went to have the long awaited steamboat. I ate like alot alot sure gained weight 了):
BUT THE STEAMBOAT TOM YAM WAS SO NICE! WORTH IT!
思玲's boyf came too this time and we had a happy meal together woo.
After dinner we sat around and talked about horror stories about hotels and such. Got me pretty freaked out, not sure if I want to go stay in a hotel anymore!
Opened the KinderJoy thing 思玲's boyf gave us for Easter and found very amusing toys ahhah.
The chocolate itself's nice too! Ate ruffles yum I <3 Ruffles.
then slacked around and went home.

jya-ne~

小红帽与大灰狼。

2009-04-09T20:27:00.003+08:00

I have realised that people don't tag me anymore is it cos I don't reply tags that often?
Okay so I shall reply now! Heaven forbid that you don't tag!

Tag replies

minhui : nevermind lah take your time! No sweat no sweat.

123 : er hello 123 (.......) what was that supposed to mean?

wingyan : PIKAPIKA CHUCHU okay i know that that was lame.

michelle : c'mon just admit that you dated me lah. haha no lor i got go lunch with you before lor. pooh your head.

vivien : HBBD haha. Thanks for remembering anyway! :D

wingyan : Heart you too! I wanna go to fly to the moon tooo! But I bet you two is honeymoon on the moon rofl!

yirong : Xiexie but if really cannot find (which i think is the case) then something else also can lah.

wingyan : nice hoodies right ?!?!?!

wingyan : OKAY. Very meaningful right? Even michelle's mom loves it :D

wingyan : I LOVE YOU TOO! HAHA. STRIVE TOWARDS YOUR DREAMS REMEMBER?

michelle : Hmm....that was also a very lame joke! But no batch fund! My wallet got hole already! BUT YAH THEY REALLY ARE LAME AHHA.

vivien : Hey my name's not random!

wingyan : YEA i saw and so freaking ugly (me) ):

clarissa : lame lame lame haha.

minhui : There are no words to find minhui. It is natural that you are awestruck for you have just witnessed the highest level of lameness ever acheived by man.

michelle : Well... you'll never get so nice as me though! ahha jkjk you're nice lah. Bet you get really happy after reading this.

may : wow. honoured and rare guest at my blog wor. Stop calling me wee!

wingyan : thank you! (happy that you like cos i created that quote -grins-)

michelle : Why you getting so hyped out over the hotel? It's like hotel only lo. I bet no free food de lor they where got so generous?

Vivien : Don't sue her! Japanese's so nice ( especially when it irritates you my dear ahha)

Note to all
STOP CALLING ME PEEWEE/WEEWEE OR ANYTHING WEE-RELATED OKAY?
'cos i realised that I'm responding to all things weee (-.-)
Got this girl stand in front of our class window then ah she went something like 'weewee' and I immediately responded. I was so freaking horrified. I never respond to it ever again! I swear! (learn from Mr Kuo one)

有时候，连哭都需要勇气。

2009-04-08T19:39:00.005+08:00

Today I did a stupid thing (again - why do I feel that you are not going to be surprised?).
I walked 2 bus stops to school. 真是有够笨的

I think it's mainly cos nowadays not enough sleep so I abit 精神错乱, plus it was freaking cold on the bus, so my nerves were all jangled up and it was really hard to sleep on the bus (keep shaking and shaking and shaking) I suddenly jerked awake and saw that it was at a stop at Hwa Chong but wasn't sure which one. I looked around and guess what (?), I didn't see the Nanyang girl that took the bus 171 with me so my immediate conclusion as that, "Oh no! I overshot (again)!" So I panicked and immediately alighted from the bus stop －only to realise tha I was 2 stops away from the Nanyang bus stop. Therefore without bothering to wait for the next bus, I decided to be healthy and walked the two bus stops. And I did, even went to walk on the road for a short distance cos got one part the pavement was dug out for obscure reasons so it's not my fault tha i walked on the road! When I reached school, I told Carina, Keye Cheng and May and KC was like, "You mean again?" I tried to clarify that the previous time (yes there was a previous time) was that I missed the stop cos I was expecting someone to press the bell for the bus to stop but there was nobody did that and the nanyang bus stop just went "phoom!" pass my eyes and in the end yes you guessed it I walked 1 bus stop back cos I could not be bothered to wait for the next bus. Rather incredile right? You know, sometimes I amaze even myself.

First period Chinese - Replaced by LA block tests. Duration: 60min
Survived LA blocks phew. It was okay. Hhah, but carina make me very nervous cos she finished very fast then she just sat there while I keeping squeezing all my brain juices out trying to think of more things to write so in the end crapped a whole lot about both Atticus and Mrs Dubose.

Second Period Mathematics
Did the Quadratic graphs in layman's term, curved graphs today. Finally used the FlexiRuler which was damn freaking $$$ by the way. Nothing much I guess but I forgot how to use the graph and solve the equation (!!!) Does anyone know? I remembered that I understood when she was explaining (-.-) but now.......

Recess
Went with Carina, Keye Cheng and Hanzhi. I ate nuggets and yoghurt yum. Carina had a bar of ~~sneakers~~ snickers and both Hanzhi and Keye Cheng had brownies for 1 @ $1.50 Buy 2 get one free. And they were not bad you know. I pinched some from both of them :D Talked alot, then went up for class 了.

Third period
Had Biology. And ahem, talked about Human reproduction which was ahem. And people you know who were very excited about this. Carina was like eh came sit next to me, feel very insecure sitting next to sick people. HAHAH. She gave us watch a video, at first we all thought it was a video on human reproduction and I told Carina, "Ehh don't be surprised if they suddenly whiped out binoculars and start focusing on the screen."

But in the end it turns out to be the Minamta incident. The cats so poor thing, nervous system get eroded by all the mercury in the fish they eat. So they appear to be "dancing" and it was so gross. Poor ねこ

Ah but it wasn't all sunshine and roses either. Got Bio Quiz. Damn loads of definitions none of which I am sure of (-.-) Didn't study for it plus I missed a whole chunk of bio lessons for SYF.

Fourth Period LA
Went to Board Room for the screening od the movie "To Kill A Mockingbird" which was obviously an adaptation of the novel "To Kill A Mockingbird". But the people all look so funny and the acting's so weird. Atticus looks damn unlike Atticus I tell you. Jem's quite cute haha. And Scout's so skinny! Don't even get me started on Dill. So yea it was basically slack for this period.

Lunch
Went down again after Carina dropped off the present for her mortal. She wrap until look like candybar like that. The wrapper was super bling haha. Then we saw May and Jasmine eating Western Food and I realised that they were using bigger and better baked beans! Kudos to the Western Food stall! -o- went up and walked one round around the level with min hui jut for the sake of it. Then I saw Carina, Sherena and Charmaine doing stupid actions which were damn retarded. It would be looked so hilarious on video but I was too late so couldn't catch them in action. haha but they were damn high so was me and Michelle.

Assembly
We were all high-ing so very rowdy when we got into the Audi. Then we started talking about weird names (apparently there was this guy named ZHANG LANG) ." and other random topics and we discussed until damn happy. Then assembly started and there was the HMP concert thing and Li Wei played! You go, girl! We were cheering haha. So it was time for Sabbaticals talk and I realised this year one not bad luh i think. I already choose what I want le.

first choices
Chinese Lyric Writing - Miss Yap Jen Huay
Food Chemistry/Chemistry Everywhere

Sad thing is that Mr Kuo only teaching AM session for Chemistry Everywhere if not I sure our whole class make a beeline for it 了咯．This year I must go and submit the options list (last year I didn't and ended up in Chinese Opera -.-)During Assembly, it was Mr Kuo kept making us laugh with his funny actions lol. Apparently he went for his driving test wearing his JC uniform nd the instructor was very skeptical about his driving abilities and he was failed! HAHAH.

Chem Olympiod
As usual. Loads of weird things. Shan't bother to elaborate.

I wanna go Island Creamery someday!
I feel like i very ulu or sth cos i never go Starbucks, Yoshiyona, Pasta Mania, Island Creamery etc before leh (-.-) But also no $$$ to go. -Sigh-

I wanna go watch movie! Date me anyone?

从新出发，也不赖嘛！

2009-04-06T20:34:00.009+08:00

WOOHOO I'VE RETURNED AND DECIDED TO QUIT MY LIFE OF BEING THE IRRESPONSIBLE BLOG OWNER!

Sorry for not updating yeas but need to put photos thus yours truly got lazy and hence dragged it on and on until yea finally today. OHmygod almost like 9 days never post le (?!) I can't believe it but ah well, here is your long awaited post my dears. (Though I bet many have already given up on my blog le so I'ld have to rebuild the no. of person coming all over again D:)

So of cos the big event that happened was my birthday 31/3/09

In school cos as mentioned earlier I had a date with michelle (Aww c'mon don't be shy michelle!) But for accuracy's sake, it was a date with the whole of my beloved trombone section! So I got a birthday cake in school :D

1st birthday cake! White chocolate & vanilla (?)

In the end cannot finish (-.-) so we secretly brought it upstairs (left like 5 slices and to think that I went crazy and ate 2 slices) and put it at the back of the classroom (I can still remember YuHan and Lydia's horrified expressions, so sorry!) where Shanna and Rachel were distracted by its smell and kept swiping away at the white chocolate O: In the end during lunch i gave them the whole cake cos cannot finish what and they disappeared with it so ah wells.

Got many many presents and well-wishes, not to mention sweet sms-es which made me very touched. Thank you you guys! You all really made my day. Loveya! ♥♥♥

Went home and had this special birthday dinner cos i didn't wanna go out to eat anyway it's so delicious!

Fried tonkatsu + Tempura + Curry + Rice + Salad = Pure Heaven ♥
Loved it as you can tell.

Now it's time for the presents!

Bag from Swee Ling 姐 :D It was my first present delivered a day before and got me real excited!

Two notebooks from Adrian, my 弟弟. Was quite touched actually, didn't really expect it.

Pikachu car from Michelleee :D So cute! ピカチュウ♥

Breadou! I absolutely heart it so terribly cute ( I keep smelling it not to mention squeezing it) Requested from Siew Lan 姐cos she dk what to buy for me :D

Puzzle of two cats from Wing Yan and Hui Peng! The wrapping present was so bling bling hahah loved it! Thanks! <3>D

Sparkling juice from Shi Chen, a fellow 31March baby! i thought that it was red wine at first!

Sweet cards and letters from Adrian, Jiayi, Carina and my mortal! :D

MONKEY HEAD FROM MAY-CHAN ARIGATOU!

2nd Birthday cake @ home yum.

OHyah Hanzhi gave me a head-shaking monkey today in school and I left it in school so no photos and Siew Ting just gave me a pink photoframe today too! And a very interesting letter ahah.

All in all, a big thank-you-and-i-love-you to everyone! This birthday was certainly great! LOVE ALL OF YOU!

:D

That's all for now cos I need to read to Kill A MockingBird for LA blocks, everyone jiayou yeas!!!!

For once I don't feel so alone in the world anymore.

2009-03-30T23:09:00.003+08:00

Today was a considerably happy day for me which has become quite rare nowadays.

Shall touch on stuff briefly cos need to study for chem block (lucky me with chem block on my birthday!) Erm. I forgot to cut my nails heck, I've just realised that they are still not cut (!!!!!) Shall go hunt for them later or yls will kill me but first things first.

Had normal lessons just that kt was being ahem, much more lamer than he already was which was a miracle in itself. He told us of his heroic tale of giving up the chance of looking into the crater of the volcano to stay back and help his "friend" (Note: a female named Esther) We were like whole class wow-ing cos it's like super scandalous and kt still mamages to look proud of it (?!) one day I might just compile a text of classic KT lame jokes haha. They really are lame and egoistic rofl.

There was class contact time and we discussed about the CIP thing and apparently there was this passage about a small fir tree wanting to be dug out and used as a Christmas Tree and somehow our dear Hanzhi managed to imagine me as the fir tree (-.-) Hello? I don't look green, do I? (Or do I?) Haha hanzhi sat next to me during LA and she says she miss me woo haha. I miss HanZhi too lol I suspect she turned weird cos of the period of time sitting next to me hee.

Today third lang May came with me to J2.30 cos she couldn't go on Wednesday as she has Chinese Drama stuff for SYF so yah. hahah i was so happy miss the good ole days at third lang with may and siew ting. we crapped like alot and always kena caught by Fujimoto-sensei (-.-) so she kept making us answer the questions. Then Siew ting would give me the sick look ahah. 色色的眼神。

So I was very happy with may being with me again B) We talked alot hahah oh she's gonna give me my present tmr whee. Then today could wake to the mrt station with her again. don't know how many 987654321 years never walk with her le so nostalgic (sp?-.-) man. HAPPY!

Then I came home and saw a present already! From my dear SiLing Jie ahha totally didn't expect it so really was a big surprise. I didn't open it yet so will have surprise tmr! I love opening presents out all at once, it just feels so great!

I keep smiling to myself today cos I'm just so happy. I'm glad that I could smile again. I was going to think that I would never smile like that ever again ~~ever since that day.~~

Oh here's a wishlist that people can see if having headache over my present :D

Shopping list:
Chio Flip-flops - carina might be buying this for me! My feet's 23 cm okay! Idk my shoe size (-.-)
Aeropostale jacket! Refer to previous post.

Pencil case?

Bag/tie/soft toy/or even just a card! I'm fine with anything really hahha. (though I actually am greedy! But ah well, recession now ya know)

Jiayou for blocks (chem) tmr okay! Do well for Mr Kuo people! :D
OH and thank you wing yan for always tagging on my blog. The other people : Shame on you! Must learn from Wing yan hahah.
And michelle just asked me out for a date during lunch tomorrow hahah! so you'll know where I'll be!

我已经找回了往日的笑容，只不过少了那一点的甜蜜。

爱上你是个美梦，但是再美的梦，也有该醒过来的时候。

2009-03-28T22:51:00.004+08:00

That's it! I'm offically in love with Aeropostale Hoodies! They are simply so chio! I want I want!
Kudos to carina for introducing them to me! Xie xie ni! :D
Yirong just might be buying this one (below) for me as birthday present! (If she can find it) hahah thanks! So happy! :D

Then Carina ~~the Great~~ showed me this one (below)and I fell heads over heels in love with it! Chio hoodie! Take a look if you don't believe me!But it's S$50 D:
credits x o.
<3
Might ask parents to sponsor S$30 for it as birthday present hahah but I've got my eye on that Zinc Bag ya know. I'm so greedy I know!!! But it's rather rare for me to like something this much!
Aeropostale hoodies, here I come!

这到底是什么跟什么嘛！

2009-03-28T15:24:00.001+08:00

Ohmygod, I'm like super pissed right now.
Once again those people must show their stupidity. How great.
I'm irritated.
And yes, the ones who made me angry were a couple of people whom I've never seen before. But still.
It doesn't give them the right to spread these kinds of rumors that well, leave people exasperated as because those rumors are nothing, not even close to truth.
Do they have nothing better to do in their lives at all that they must gossip all these meaningless things? This is so creepy. They have no rights to do this I tell you. No rights at all.

It's those aunties at work again. Clarence's mom phoned my mom and asked if I was having tuition at the block opposite my house. My mom was like what?! So it turns out that those people have been spreading rumors that me and samuel were having tuition at the opposite block.
I was like wth. They really are creative, ain't they? The only time I go to the opposing block is to have my piano lessons and no, I've not seen Samuel ever since last year 1 Sept at Greenwood Primary. So how the heck am I having tuition there (?!) 简直是莫名其妙。

This freakingly creeps me out. I mean like I don't know these people ya and they're like spying on me. Are they seriously that bored?

And it's not just this one time either. They keep trying to track my tuition teacher/centres down cos (I'm not trying to brag or anything but this is their view) I have good results. And somehow they managed to track down my tuition teacher (who is actually my next-door neighbour) and even her phone no. (?!) Tell me how creepy that is. How about super. Hence, cos of me and my apparent 'fame', my tuition teacher got more and more students. ( At first there was just me. She didn't even think about teaching others until more and more people called her and hired her as a tuition teacher.) The amount of students grew more and more and more. Haha, she even once called me her money-tree.

Then when my brother was of age to enter primary, he didn't go into Greenwood like I did, cos my mom didn't like the system of greenwood, so she put him in Admiralty Primary.(which she didn't like the system of either but I'm quite sure my mom doesn't like any school systems in the world. ) Then those freaking aunties went to say that my mom was proud therefore the choice. They say she scared that my brother not just smart as me (Roll your eyes together with me please) so in order to 'save face', she put my brother into another school way from prying eyes.
Ahem, if that was the case, isn't it the prying eyes' problem? And just who might be the prying eyes?

Then there was once that my dad's collegue came over and ask if my PSLE score was 268. (It was.) but my dad didn't tell me so guess how he knew? Apparently here was this banner of PSLE results outside this tuition centre (naturally Samuel's name was there too. He did better than me.) They cheat people to think that we studied there so people would attend classes there.

What the freak. I mean like I don't even know these people and they're spreading rumors about me? I'm just an ordinary person, not some superman or sth. I've never insulted, said any bad things about you (By Jove, I didn't even know what you existed!) so why are you doing this? You have no right to comment on my life whoever you maybe. Just stop this okay.

这是什么跟什么嘛！闹也闹够了吧！

It is so not funny. Go find something more worthwhile to do then spin fanciful and ridiculous tales about my various tuition teachers/centres. (FYI I only have one tuition now -.-) Really, I don't see how you benefit from all these at all. They only serve to irritate me. Your lives should really be more than just this. And actually tuition doesn't really play apart that much in studies. you just have to be motivated. If you don't care, no matter what tuition centre you go to, the results will still be the same.

Maybe you think that I'm over-reacting/boasting/plain rude but whatever. Just go away.

你的幸福里没有我的份。

2009-03-26T23:05:00.002+08:00

Geog today was okay I think but (.......)

Sitting arrangement changed according to exam format so we're sticking to that until all of block tests are over which is like up till May (?) I'm sitting in between Xin Yi and Chia Jie Lin, with Rachel behind me and Carina in front of me which is a rather nice seat (!) One good thing about having Carina in front is that can get free food to eat! hahah just kidding.

Nothing much happened except that I started mugging maths like siao -.- (together with Carina)
But maths is like seriously screwed up for me :X Damn those graphs. Screw up my brain only.
Thus decided to volunteer for Maths Remedial to overcome those stupid numbers.

Don't feel like going into details so fastforward. Went for band, took the sec 1s brass section de. Ester and Tasha cracked another lame joke. Here's the scenario;

Me : Ehh you all conduct leh! ( for the sec1s)
Ester (looks innocently back): Oh you want copper or iron? Both can conduct leh!
Me : .......
I've realised that my batchmates are one of the most interesting people alive that I know of.

After that, during band, they off-ed all the lights then everyone closed their eyes and listened to the recording of Hymn To The Infinite Sky. It was all rather emo so no offense lah, but I think should be encouraging people and making the atmosphere more cheerful than the current emo one.

I've confidence in the whole band! Gold with honours, it's ours!
You guys will be the ones rocking SYF to the core! :D I'm sure of that!
NYCB - Nothing you can beat! <3

Reached home at like 8 pm zzz.
Time to kill thousands of brain cells doing linear graphs bye.

有时不是放不放得下的关系，而是想不想放下。

2009-03-25T20:08:00.004+08:00

Saw this somewhere and thought that it was so meaningful! I'm sure you guys will like it too!
credits here.
Ways to think to make your life happier!
(Refresh if you cannot view the images.)

我想要的，只是个拥抱而已。

2009-03-25T19:03:00.002+08:00

Revising Geog half-way got bored thus decided to blog.
Came home quite early today cos Kuo decided to let us off from Chem Olympiad early as we didn't have our calculators with us (actually mine was just in my bag outside the library -.-) Shan't elaborate on that. Just know that it involves counting moles.

Was anti-social today in Chem Olympiad sat at a table all by myself, cos like I only know myself there. Then Genie came and sat with me lol. Start squealing Wing Yan and Hui Peng! Rofl but she's nice :D Though we didn't talk much cos had to listen to Kuo.

Today in school nothing particularly interesting happened I think (?)
Oh but May came to school today yay! (She was sick and didn't turn up for school the previous day) お大事に！Fretted over freaking Innovation Presentation thing. We didn't do a thing and we're supposed to present tmr! What's more, we weren't even sure what idea to use. Way to go man D:

Gave Yi Yun her present today! HAPPY BIRTHDAY YIYUN! B)

Talking about birthdays, mine's coming too. Next tuesday! But somehow I hope it won't come idk why. Keep thinking that it's gonna be the worst one ever ): I've had this weird thing that something major always happens to make me upset during the period in March before my birthday, so I won't look forward to it and I'll think " It's gonna be the worst one ever." so I won't want it to come. And this year, it happened again ):< Actually the magic of birthdays is in the waiting, once it's over, will be very sian (-.-) Nothing much gonna happen after my birthday, except for Brenda and Vivien's birthday which are on 3 April and 5 May respectively. But my dear Brenda's going for OBS camp from 31 Mar to 3 April which you may have noticed, my birthday and her birthday alike but luckily the last day's half-day only so she can go home to celebrate yay loves. (Alas, the presents I haven't buy yet! -look of horror-)

Bought Shi Chen's present already though I wrap until -insert any suitable word that has the meaning of horrible here- Hey, but at least I cared enough to wrap it! :D

I tell you I suddenly miss Grace, Yu Wen, Jie Yi, Kimberly and Lynette alot then I realised that I didn't buy presents for them at all last year D: Hmm...this year I shall give them (!) but it will all be the same thing though there will be a homely touch to it hahha keep guessing but I won't say a word. Shall pass it to them during teachers' day! I shall be Santa Claus for one day! I remember during p5/6 they gave me a bag but at first they tell me is a bag, a plastic bag hahhah miss the crazy ole days. They even gave me a card and I cried reading it )': Damn touched. Love ya to bits! <3

Made baked rice today with the help of my mom. Cos need to try for Home econs. But i realised quite easy leh. Should be small case for us eh? hahah. It tasted not bad and I had that for dinner. The mozillacheese! Heavenly~

I want the Nike shoes ohmygod so pretty white and grey (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
But never mind, I shall be a nice little girl and not burden my parents with the ever-so hefty price tag.

Off to study Geog. Good luck peeppos. 1st block test of the year! We can do it!
:D

有时候觉得自己好傻，总是在那里痴痴地等待，不知道到底是为了什么。

2009-03-20T16:20:00.002+08:00

I'm sorry for not posting for so long (!!!) but seriously had no mood.
Hmm...feel like opening up wretch you know it's rather cool :D

Okay for the joke thing I shall reveal the answer!

Recap

Q: Which 2 teacher's names are the most confusing?

A: Miss _____ & Miss _____.

The answer is Miss Li & Miss Ding!

Geddit? No? Put it all together then.

MISS-LI-DING!

(MISLEADING = CONFUSING)

I'm very sure you understand now but wait, before you start throwing your rotten tomatoes at me, remember this is Ester and Tasha's lame joke okay? It's labeled lame so whaddaya expect?

---
I need to find a 知己desperately, i need someone to talk to, someone I can share my joy with, tell my troubles to, and share smiles together.

Because you've given up. And I feel so lonely.

就因为是不可能的，我们才要去试一试，不对吗？

2009-03-18T12:38:00.003+08:00

Tag replies

Latest ones on top.

rie : Really? My piano teacher tell me de leh (-.-) idk larh but get hotel so 好命! LOL but this is my first time taking the theory exam.

wing yan : Yep new blogskin. Ya like it?

min hui : archiving.... gonna do it later i think. hmpf i'm a beginner only okay! I'll beat you one day muhahahah.

Vivien : My dear vivien toh, you ought to get your eyes checked you know. cos only ONE LINE of my profile is in Japanese, the rest are in chinese. OH NO, don't sue my teacher, she's soo nicee :D

han zhi : Actually I was grinning to myself when I beat you but so... ah wells jiayou in word challenge! IT'S FUN!

sherry : Er I got the skin from here. And exquisite♥'s the maker. The credits wasn't put in when I got it but I'll put in soon :D Oh and you are?

may : LOL me too. And is it just me but you're making a habit of calling me wee eh?

jieyi : Er yea. How stupid of me right. I bet i'm the only one on planet earth who does such stupid stuff (-.-)

yirong : Wow you're saying you look toot? Believe me, compared to me you'll look like a supermodel. I'm like super toot when I clip up my fringe D: Hey haircutting services FOC very good de you know. How can you say that I'm sadistic?

vivien : Hmmm....there are many replies I can give for your tag. Here are some options, which one would be to your liking?
Of cos you love me!!!! -acts 厚脸皮-
-giggles and run away- (Charmaine's signature move)
-face turns red- ......err...er...Reallly?
I love you too! Let's get married this instant!
-slaps your face- I'm not lesbian!
:D

vivien : Big lecture? How come I got no impression? Just go enjoy playing your double bass! JIAYOU ADD OIL ADD OIL!

Er ok. I'm bored now so let me entertain you guys with a lame joke by Esther and Tasha!

Lame joke-by Esther and Tasha

Q: Which two teacher's names are the most confusing?
A: Miss _____ & Miss ____

GO ON AND TRY TO SOLVE IT! but I warn you it's realllly lame so don't come and throw pebbles and stones (or even worse rotten tomatoes) at me when I tell you guys the answer. Tag your answers/responses at the tagboard!

The answer will be revealed in the next post! Have fun!

当坚持离开了，眼已哭红了，留下的只是个疲惫的小女孩。

2009-03-17T21:32:00.003+08:00

WHOOHOO ladies and gentlemen, I'm back!
Lots to update I think. Errm, so let's start with yesterday then.

Yesterday
Went for section outing though as mentioned in the previous post.
Went to Coronation Plaza to meet up with the rest of the section! They were all wearing BAND TEE. After that, we went to Swirls, this ice cream parlour (short walk from Coronation) and had ice-cream. They didn't have my favourite Cookies&Cream (grr...) so I got Double Mint Chocolate instead and it was nice! Swirls has many crazy flavours rofl. Scoops @ $3 each. Theo came, Rie went for her Chem Car thing so we (Clarice, Michelle, Pamela, Clarissa, Theo & me) proceeded to Pam's house. At Pam's house's gate, Pam shouts but no one in the house heard so she was preparing to climb over the gate when she told someone to call her house and presto someone picks up and Pam had to jump down from the gate just before it opened.
Pam's house was rather cool. There was this plastic playhouse thing and when you looked inside, you would get a big shock, cos it's utterly filled with....... SHOES! lol Pam has her very own shoehouse(!!!!) How cool is that. Settled down in the living room after sometime then we wanted to watch A.I. (Artifical Intelligence) so Pam tried to set the dvd system up, But there was only sound, no grahics so Pam and her sister painstaking connect wires, reconnect and connect again and viola, it's done! So we watched and Rie came along. Watched until half-way then had to go home already (Actually it was supposed to be a sleep-over but I couldn't stay over. Neither could Michelle, Theo or Clarissa). Was so sad cos the movie was reaching its climax then we had to leave ):
Took bus back with Theo (direct bus to AMK Hub) so I reached home pretty early.

Today
Had band today and on top of that had section run (!) I went there damn early so I thought that it was 7 am go run but it was actually 7.30 (-.-). Went to outside Band Room after awhile Clarissa came along with the cake! It's the cake for Theo cos we celebrating her birthday which was on 16 March! Clarissa bought a fruit cake and it looked so pretty. we sat outside the band room, suspecting whether Michelle was coming late on purpose so she could skip the running. It turns out that Michelle was at the track already together with Theo. Hence we the foursome sat down there and stoned while waiting for the threesome (Clarice, Rie and Pam) to arrive. Jo slept over too and she came to watch us run. Ran 5 rounds.
After that, we watched Chu Hui run. It was very hilarious as Pam went, "Jiayou Ah ma! Then Chun Hui would wave. So we went to disturb her by saying Jiayou Ahma many many times so she had to wave many times rofl.

Was almost late for band fall-in. After that went for Chem Supplementary with Kuo. I died in there I tell you. Stupid balancing chemical equations (-.-) Make my head explode only.
Self-practed during band. Had cake for lunch (Theo's cake) yumyuum tasty but we were hungry so went down to Mixed Veg to eat. I nearly ate finish the whole plate can you believe it(?) I believe I'm getting fatter (-.-) thanks alot man.
Self-practed again and was bored outta my life. That's mainly whatever happened (......)

I find facebook so fun now! hahah. WORD CHALLENGE (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
Yirong tagged me as the Confused Onion Head thing -.- Shall kill her the next time I see her ^^
Talked to Grace hahah realised how much I really missed her! We even agreed to meet up during the June Holidays! :D CRAZY POTATO!

Brenda's going to be at OBS on both my birthday and her own birthday incredible right? Bet she's gonna come back chao-ta lol. Have fun at OBS k? :D Miss ya!

Nothing's on tmr except that I have to study/mug like siao! Kuo mde me fear for my science block test which happens to be on my birthday! AHHH!

Note: I know I haven't been replying tags but I will do so in a post like tmr okay? Be patient people!

不爱，也是一种爱。

2009-03-15T16:51:00.004+08:00

Changed blogskin finally yay! Rather like this but it has no archives >:(
No blogsong this time cos idk what song to put heh.

Yesterday was my dreaded theory test D:
But actually it was sort of okay in the end, sort of cheated my feelings (or am I the one to blame for having over-active imagination?)
Venue: Fu Chun Primary School
LOL idk why but apparently theory exams grade 1-5 are taken in primary schools and the higher grades are taken in hotels (!!!)
I went in then a wave of nostalgic hit me cos I was sub-consciously comparing it to the Greenwood Primary that I knew. Ohmygod, I've left Greenwood for like 2 years already (?!) Miss it awhole lot ): Miss 6a`o7 super-duper lots! We didn't even have a single class gathering! ): Should have one someday seriously peepos.
There were many little kids taking grade 5 theory exam you know (?!) I was like wth, what are kids doing nowadays (?!) Guess they must be really talented ohman i'm so jealous.
Duration: 2hours
I came out in one. 'cos I finished it heh the composing part and the french terms just tikam tikam I think should be able to pass gua.
I came out and went off with my Otosan cos my Okasan wanted to go out for an outing. I was like oh okay the previous day.
Little did I know that my papa and mama's idea of an outing was......
-music for special tension effects-
TO GO TO A MUSEUM!
did you get that? And no, your eyes weren't deceiving you. And yes, we did go to a museum in the end.
THE SINGAPORE NATIONAL MUSEUM.
And the most shocking thing was that, the admission fee for a fellow Singaporean adult is
-more music effects-
10 bucks!
And I mean, no offense but people normally don't want to go to the museum and they are being discouraged even further by the hefty sum of admission fee so I was abit wth and wanted to persuade them to leave like right away. Hobey-ho, there was a piece of good news of people of NYGH though apparently our admission is free! woah idk why either so in the end we just went (that was $25 in total, inclusive of my brother's 5 bucks).
First stop- The Singapore History Gallery
It was really cool cos each of us got this 'Companion" thing which was lime green and looked rather like a oversized ipod with cool earpieces (!) We had to listen to tracks along our way like if you saw the sticker on the floor saying that track 45 then you just punched in 45, press 'go' then presto, you'll hear some track concerning the place you are in now. Techn-o stuff.
It wasn't as bad as I thought it would be (-boring) and we spent like hours in there watching around listening and viewing stuff.
In fact, it wouldn't be half-bad if I hadn't had to rush to the toilet frequently.
拼命地泻肚子。
It was as if my stomach had some personal feud with the food I ate or sth.
泻肚子泻到脚软, can you imagine? ):
Next stop- Singapore Liviing Galleries
Very cool too. Went to this Food one. They talked about Nasi Lemak, Laska, Chicken Rive, Bat Ku Teuh, Char Kuay Tiao, and Roti Prata. I was practically drooling. I wanna eat roti prata. Haven't had a decent one since god knows when.
Walked around, finshed all the exhibits (quite little actually) then went off to Junction-8 to have dinner whoo! Ate at this stall behind it actually but super cheap ya know, one plate of economic rice with two side dishes right 2 bucks only whoo.
Went shopping at Junction-8. Saw this white Zinc bag with brown polka dots so pretty! Might ask for this for my birthday from parents but i'm still searching! hahas. Or perhaps a chio jacket!

Received devasting news yesterday, but shan't talk about it here.
You'll never understand how much I wish that time could reverse, then we won't have to waste so much time. Or that time could be fast-forwarded. This's the only time I've wished for it to be like this and only for your sake. Do you understand?

Oh and as many of you should have known by now, I've opened facebook today! Add me okay?
Word Challenge's fun just that i happen to suck at it. I've tried and realised times when I was eating fruit while playing, my scores go higher haha seriously. I beat Zhizhi, and Hanzhi and idk who hahah but i'm still like one of the last (?) I don't care must beat everyone yay!

Tmr not going for band exchange cos apparently they never book the bus for us non-syf people. how mean /: but i'm not blaming anyone. Going for section outing though <3>

Does anyone have the Archives code?

想念你的心，从未停止过。

2009-03-12T21:47:00.007+08:00

Today was a rather interesting day I reckon.
I woke up, brushed my teeth, changed into my hongzi, tied up my hair, made my bed, ate my breakfast and then went to call my parents to wake up. They woke up and was like isn't it only 2am plus? And I was like o.o yah hor and went back to bed (-.-)

I think I'm getting more and more adnormal. such a sad case. tsk tsk tsk.

Today in art class it was quite funny. Apparently we were 2 classes ahead of most classes so we got to slack and play pictionary. It goes like this: You go to the container draw out a word and go to the whiteboard draw something out so the people can guess correctly, essentially like charades (woo I keep remembering us in LSC- the pop charade thing was so hilarious, we have limitless imagination; even a toilet plunger can become an earring! hahaha) but no acting, instead we have to draw.

So 207's artisitc skills were tested and here are some of the more amusing ones:

Our class's definitely more bonded after LSC! ♥
Look at what Mr.Chang did to our heart (!) He drew a bee and a flower, 2 clouds and lightning hit the poor bumblebee! How could he be so cruel to a bee? LOL. At first he tried to make our heart into a broken heart but then right the marker just nice no ink heh.
This is apparently a torchlight haahahah. By May whoo~
Theatre by Min Hui. LOL at first i thought that it was a oven baking human
Pig in a cage yo Han Zhi! but the word was zoo hahaha. forgot who guessed it.

Eyeless and mising-a-ear hippo by Hui Peng cos it was guessed before it could be fully drawn out!
This is the best by Michelle. Guess what it is? SPONGEBOB. Mr.Chang was so exasperated that we manged to guess this one out just based in this rofl.
Surfing by Charmaine! haha the hair so cool.
Half a Changi Airport by Yi Jun ( the rest got erased) hahaha. looks like a mushroom too!
Interesting right? See, 207 people can draw! -Applause-
Home Ecos
We made Oat meal mini pancakes this time round. Quite easy to make leh. whoo~
Partners: Rachel & Chang Jie Lin! :D

The finished mixture/batter!
On the frying pan! Sizzle sizzle sizzle.

Pressing with a fork. Rachel and Chang enjoyed this tremendously.
End product in my lunchbox! yummy tasted yummy yay. Went around eating other people's :D thanks for sharing!

Burnt my hand in a ridculous way. Shall not even say it just that it hurts. Big time. Luckily I can still hold a pencil.

This is nothing related to what everI had just talked about. This is Wing Yan's cardboard phone. And she used this to call me before! So kute.

Today's an important day!
It's 婷's birthday! Happy birthday girl! 16 already, 不小了。
Wanted to post a birthday card for her but couldn't find stamps (-.-)
So hereby wishing our 小寿婆of the day 生日快乐！

She tried to scam my moeny by making me buy presents for her but we settled on this rilakkuma thing which i will buy if I have a the means and I can find it. See the following:

She darn picky summore want this size de (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
I was like .....(!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) then she said like very good, when I go back to Penang can wear this and perform (-.-) Seriously that girl......

In any case, a promise is a promise so people, have you seen this bear ahywhere? If you know anywhere that sells this bear please tell me tyvm.

Ohyah SPA's tmr (!) so good luck peepos!

我想在大雨中快乐地跳舞。

2009-03-09T20:45:00.004+08:00

Something freaking incredible happened today and I won't be surprised if Singapore decides to disown me after finding out about this. Yes it is that embarrassing.

Me, a Singaporean of freakingly almost 14 years, got lost in the MRT.

yes yes you saw that right. You guys should go ahead and brand me a 超级笨蛋的大路痴. Cos I seriously am one. Hmmm...let's retrace my steps. You should be all quite familiar with the Singapore Mrt Map right? For the convenience of all, I shall have generously provide you all with a map of the Mrt Railways. Here goes:

As you all should know, I live near Admiralty. I boarded the wrong train going towards Marina Bay when obviously I was supposed to go via the Jurong East way. How stupid was that? Go ahead, laugh at me. I know that you are dying to.

Then the most stupid thing was that I didn't realise it at all and I was happily taking the train that was going in the opposite direction (!!!!) until Toa Payoh then I realised something was amiss. Panicking, I alighted from the train, took a good look at the map (sth like the above) and concluded that the only way to salvage the situation (It was already 2:30 and I was supposed to be there by the very least 3:00) was to take the train all the way to Dhoby Ghaut, change train to the purple line and change train again at Outram Park.

I reached Outram Park and I made another stupid mistake and I took the train towards Pasir Ris instead of Joo Koon (What kind of name is that anyway?) I realised my mistake and stupidly chiong-ed to the opposite train at Raffles Place without looking, assuming that it would take me back the way I came and guess what? It didn't so I stupidly took it all the way to Orchard and then I realised that something was wrong. Hence I alighted and then took it back to Dhoby Ghaut (-.-) Back to square one. I was panicking like siao already. Almost broke down and cried in public. But I didn't ): Hence I continued from Dhoby Ghaut to Outram Park to Buona Vista finally! Chiong-ed like siao through the rain with my umbrella and finally reached my classroom. The time was 3:40+ and what was the actual time I had to be there? 3:00. But luckily sensei was not mad at me or anything! She was so nice and let me off the hook. And guess what, turns out that I was not the latest. Got people even later (?!)

Got back my long awaited test paper for Japanese CA1 and I got 42/50 (!) Abit disappointed, thought that I could do better (I dreamt that I got 45/50 lor )': ) but it's considered not bad when compared to my last year's pathetic marks of 27/50 kind heh.

Today was freakingly cold ): Raining cats and dogs or according to someone rats and cats xD

Today's a special day! And it's a secret why. My lips are sealed!
还有，某人的生日要到了。来不来得及寄生日卡呢。

And I do miss you so much.

这就是你所谓的世界吗？对不起，我不懂。

2009-03-09T11:21:00.003+08:00

现在突然感到很乱。
在网上看别人的部落各，bloghop 的时候，突然看到了令我感兴趣的link，然后就click了，结果呢，让我不知道该说什么话才好。
好奇怪哟。看着自己的post，出现在别人的部落各上，连照片也有。一边看一边在想会是谁啊？

我大概知道是谁，但是资料上的却不符合，但应该是她没错。
但是你知道吗？我多么希望自己是错的。
不知道，想问都问不了。
现在只在等她的答案了。
我现在不知道自己该有怎么样的感受。是生气吗？
我并不生气，我还觉得也许是我的错吧，她分明就是不想让我看到，我应该尊敬她的隐私，对不起哟。如果我没去看的话，对我们彼此都比较好。
只是......我有种被利用的感觉，不知怎么的。
我们还会像以前那样吗？

这个人我很喜欢她的，虽然一年才见几次面，但是她在我的心目中是很有分量的，虽然我并不清楚自己是否在她的心中有个位子，但是我不在意，因为我是纯粹把她当成很好的朋友，甚至有点像个姐姐。真的是很喜欢的哦！
所以，我没想到会发生这样的事，我甚至现在都还不敢去相信。
不是你吧？请告诉我这不是你做的。
只要你说不是你做的，我一定会相信你的。
所以，不是你不是你不是你。
我打死也不会相信。

真的不是你。

[edit@1:27pm ]
突然发现自己真的很不了解你。为什么会突然有种陌生的感觉？我讨厌这种感觉。
就像......仿佛在你的生命中我从没有出现过。
我在你的心中，不，该说我根本就不在你的心中吗？
原来一开始只是我一个人在那里一厢情愿，认为我们是好姐妹。
原来我错了。
不过，你依然是我喜欢的那个表姐!
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幸福并不是一切的结束，只是学习如何守住幸福的开始。

2009-03-08T15:10:00.007+08:00

I'm currently bored.
Just went to this person's blog and was put out by the fact that the webcounters were more than mine! (grr.....) so yea.I wanna beat this person not that I hate him or anything. sort of lost the drive to blog I'm not sure why. I've so much to blog about but I'm just lazy to put them into words etc ya know it.

Maybe I should post LSC photos but they are just too many plus blogger's uploading photos system is retarded. To ensure that the photos are in the correct order etc takes a lot of calculation cos the last photo you upload will be on top and you need to go count like 5 then you need a freaking formula to upload the photos which is super-sian or maybe it's just me (.......)

So for the amusement and entertainment of you guys and me mainly, let the Kumakuma Fashion Show begin!

Advertising : Mentos! (They rock on)
Nerdy Kumakuma!
Another advert: Wintermelon tea! (Carina will hyperventilate at the sight of this)
Superstar kumakuma! (WingYan's super cool sunglasses!)
Our superstar of Drama Idol, Momo! (Boy how much do I miss my own momo ): )
Er.... don't ask.
May with Kumakuma!
Super duper cute Stitch (except for the butt part) I want the one I saw in Malaysia!
Ohmygosh! Hui Peng's having an affair with Kumakuma! WingYan's going to be devastated! D:
The happy couple Hui Peng and Wing Yan oh dear Kumakuma cannot be a third party!
Bandit (?) Kumakuma!
On the sleeping bag lalala.
Pirate! Reminds me of One piece! e2
Rocka-bye baby.
Old granny Kumakuma.
Kumakuma eating up WingYan's pink tofu-ish rabbit MUHAHAHA.
Here with Toot ahem Sherena's hippo!
Kumakuma lives in an igloo.
Brain concussion. Wingyan took pity on it and bandaged its head up.
Wow. SiewTing's turtle.

Okay now I feel like blogging about LSC. Am I weird or what? -hypers-
\

So not looking forward to tomorrow. It's supposed to be a school holiday but guess what? There's still third lang! (grr) So i still have to go out D: Don't feel like moving though I think that i'm getting fatter (shi-ne!)
):
I'm so screwed for Theory Exam (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
It's next week and I haven't memorise a single shit thing(!!!!)
I swear to ye gods that Theory was invented in make my life miserable.
D:

世界の中で207が本当に一番ですね。

2009-03-07T17:03:00.002+08:00

WAHAHHAHA I'm back from camp (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
Feeling really really high!!!!
went to class blog and posted thanking many many people!!!

207 rocks you know!!!!
we managed to win the drama idol thing!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WOOHHOOOOO!!!! we screamed like siaokias when we found that we were 1st!!!!!!!!!!!!
WAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAH~~~~
We rocka and we have the lamest class cheers (according to Mr Kuo) but we're lovin' it!
<3
Thanks 207 for making this such an enjoyable camp!

wanted to upload photos but too many already in total got like 153 (?!) so I'm too lazy to do so now. will upload into facebook when I have one. (going to open one soon)

Hmm...I've got an infected finger all thanks to the frigging slipper wars. and i didn't want to put a plaster thinking that it's no big deal but then it sort of got like hard to move or sth so i panicked and went around asking if my finger would drop out due to the infection but i was told just go and put antiseptic cream and plaster and tada i'm having a plastered finger. okay i think i'm making not much sense but ah well. i shall go watch onepiece lazy to blog today idk why.

ありったけの夢をかき集め、捜し物を探しに行くのさ。

2009-03-03T23:13:00.004+08:00

This is going to be a really short post as I'm currently short of time so bear with me yeas? tyvm.

I'm going to be MIA therefore not online or anything from 4 March up till 6 March midday. Going for the LSC whooo yay. People don't miss me too much okay? hahah. Panicked like siao due to last-min packing. Way to go joei. but I managed to pack everything (I hope) and it looked sth like this:

This is my luggage for the whole camp. So fat, I stuffed like siao all the stuff inside it. hope can zip O:
this are the remainders (?!) of what i could not stuff into my bag. In they go into my backpack!
Snacks! Had this sudden craving for Oreos! Don't ask about the lemon waffle thing.
My Kumakuma! Ain't it so cute? Trying to stuff it into the luggage.
OH no kumakuma's too fat (!!!!) And it's supposed to go and eat up WingYan's pink tofu-ish rabbit by mistake as it loves to eaet tofu muahahh. Beware tofu-ish bunny!

okay random but whatever. I'm bring my laokokkok camera there so stay tuned for photos (mostly unglam ones).

!
Everyone give me halleluyah.

想要对你说的爱，沉默了。

2009-02-28T13:23:00.003+08:00

WHOOOHHOOOO
I'm back from my haircut!
And I'm rather happy with it ♥♥♥
Now my fringe rather layered so created the illusion of it being shorter so yls won't catch me again! /gg Then my back also layer alot so now it feels really light yay But my hair's still long. Wanted to cut it shorter but she said that layered le, longer will be pretty so ah well, she's the one with experience so 就听她的。Now my hair shape sort of change lol. On the whole, not bad! The auntie there very nice!

I shall make advert for her;

住家美发院。
Blk 684C Woodlands Drive 62
8th storey -----*

*note: cos I didn't go look at the 门牌 so unsure.

Price varies/depends and relatively cheap. Mine was only $6.
Rebonding price varies too but for my length (which is very long) it's only $80!
Service: Room's small (An average room in an average HDB flat) but service's good!
The auntie (ahem, hairdresser) is really nice and she likes to talk to customers.
If you're the only one there and she's not busy, she will give you alot of suggestions for your hair (which was my case) but I pre-booked first so duh. (No extra charge!)
I bet Carina will like that ~~auntie~~ hairdresser too cos she compliments the customer(s)!
She said that I was apparently pretty and that I had a nice face shape hahah. Thus that partly explains why I'm in such a good mood. 気持ちがいいですね。嘿嘿。
So you might want to cut your hair there too!

Next week's LSC! I'm rather excited about it idk why either.
Camp camp camp camp camp camp.
Oh and I'm so going to ~~steal~~ nicely borrow Rie's igloo tent you know the one's dumped in band room? It's going to be so funny and I bet that the whole class of 2o7 will try to squeese inside it. (Heh can totally imagine that)
I want to shower at the Locker Room there like in Band Camp cos that's obviously the best showering spot in the whole entire school. plus, it's like so deserted no one really uses it so it's really clean! But I bet they booked it for the teachers le lor ): but this year's quite nice leh let us bathe for 8 min last year was what - 3?
Shall bring my beloved Section tee and wear it to sleep (!) Michelle, c'mon get over the fact that's it's too big but in fact it's really nice to wear! Hope band tee comes in time for LSC but I'm not that hopeful. But it would be so nice to wear it to LSC.

The sec3s going for OBS. Next year we'll go too yay! The main reason why I'm so excited about it is because I want to get the OBS tee! Clarice lent me wear before once and it's really nice! :D
LSC, here I come!

[P.S.] Baka 婷，I want the bag(s), the jacket(s) and the Nike shoes (!!!) so stop making me so jealous. I shall go and steal from your house in June /gg

被动的我，却为你心动。

2009-02-28T12:38:00.003+08:00

Okay I know I seriously haven't blogged for 1000000245 years but ah wells, just couldn't bring myself to blog although there were many things to blog about(?) Sorry for the outdated-ness! And for not replying to tags for so long (......)

So I'm basically blogging to tell everyone that I'm ah, duh alive and well and will continue to blog so do come and visit! <3

I shall blog about the events that happened during my leave of absence so let's just pretend I blogged about it on the respective days okay?
Good.

I'm going to cut my fringe later @ 1pm (!) It's some house-salon kind of thing (?) It's on the 8th storey in my flat so I er am hoping that it would turn out ~~pretty~~ nice. AHH! 小红阿姨，快点好起来，这样你就可以帮我把我的刘海建得漂漂亮亮的，好吗？

Oh baby, this feeling ain't ever gonna stop.

2009-02-21T18:03:00.002+08:00

Oh people I'm back.

About Friday
Was really feeling utterly cranky that day. So I'm really sorry if I snapped at you guys or sth. Dear gods i think I snapped at a lot of people. Sorry! I'm not really a morning person.
The only interesting thing that really happended was that mr kuo and kt nearly got into a fight. It was so amusing despite the seriousness of the situation.(for more details: click here) Mr Kuo nearly said the fword. Everyone went like, "Hey!" I hope he doesn't do that in Chem Olympiod class. The class might just hyperventilate and 暴毙 on the spot due to overexcitement) leaving me and MrKuo the only people in the History/Geog room in the library. (Okay on second thoughts maybe I might want him to do so. The scene would be so interesting to see. I will most probably laugh until I die so MrKuo would be the only one left.)

In any case, back to the fight. Some people (no names now. protection of identity) were like "Jiayou MrKuo! Punch him!" Hilarious really. but ah well, they didn't get into a fight, all's well ends well, the poor class of 207 sat for the Geog Quiz during their precious recess. (The highlight of our day eh Charmaine?) so in the end, we were the true 受害者s.
Then there was the IvP Launch.

IvP Launch
I've realised that MrKuo is very particular about student's safety. WingYan, Hui Peng and May got scolded cos they handed up the letter of wanting to be dismissed there late but MissLye didn't tell them to write it in the consent form either. So well, can't really blame them right?
Went there in a bus and weirdly our bus was only like 2/5 filled up and MrKuo took the same bus as us and we got scolded cos we laughed and laughed and made a lot of noise. But that noise level considered not bad already. I still remember last time in primary school we sang the national athemn and school song on the bus cos we got bored. Ohyes, even the Barney song.

The launch was at NTU cool. Their auditorium was so cool and big! but I still find ours more grand! Waited damn long for it to start. Then it started finally. Carina and Charlene slept during the opening talk. The GOH very funny leh. Pronounce salmon in a weird way (sei-mon) but I found it quite interesting. (Actually all the way I was dreaming about eating salmon ah lovely!)
Then I kept staring at the two sleepers and amazingly staring at them made me sleepily so later on I slept too. Managed to wake up later.
-fastforwards-
Then there was the Tea Break yay! The people who host this launch darn generous! Wide spread of yummy food! we started chiong-ing straight away. i was trying to tell myself not to eat so much but in the end... Then with wingyan we went to raid the teachers' food area! (theirs is much nicer then ours actually though ours already very nice le!) got swiss rolls and some kind of tart thing that looks like egg tart but is not. I ate one and it was warm and nice! :D
Lateron went back to the auditorium and listened to more stuff. Quite interesting. and there was a game show which i shan't go into details....
After which went back to school, took bus with wingyan and she stopped 2 stops later for the sake of me! so 感动 haha. talking to Wingyan on the bus is niceee!

Thinking about this, I really should change my blogskin soon. I found one that I like but er it's like I cannot find a nice icon so yea wells.

Stop the music

2009-02-21T16:15:00.002+08:00

Even the piano resents me today
I knew something was wrong
from the moment I saw it grin
In a sinister manner
Leering, glaring, cackling
Something is wrong

I walk up
Try to play a piece
And true enough
Snarling with all its black teeth
and white teeth
It resents my touch
biting
snapping
slashing out
at my fingers
I try to reason with it
Why is this this
but there's no reason with a beast
a wild one

Flipping wildly
Lunging pouncing wanting
Those black teeth and white teeth are a-hungry
I'm afraid to press the keys
I can almost imagine
them as hot branded irons

I try to keep my cool
Try to keep go playing
Minor and major scales
form half-heartedly under my fingers
They tumble there
Break apart here
And the piano's a-smiling

I struggle with my rising panic
Stifle an urge to scream
No no no no
This is not happening
Force myself to think
My mind turned fuzzy
Like poor connection on a TV
Can't think can't think can't think
Why why why

Today there's no music
No music flowing out
Oh what I wouldn't give
To get back that feeling again
No music flowing out
No music to touch the soul
Why are my fingers unable to fly across the piano
I still don't believe it

The piano is a-grinning
I don't know why
Does it see the despair
In my heart

Snipping snapping clamping
at my fingers
It is relentless
Trying to
get me down
Prancing pouncing snarling
It wants to
stop the music
stop

Still I play on
Left hand
left
Right hand
right
No stopping
No more

Piano's still there
but no music flows out
No music flowing through me
Not any longer
Not helping not helping not helping

No sweet singing
No ringing melodies
There's just me
and the
piano

My teacher asks me if anything is wrong
I shake my head numbly
I turn back and
see the piano grinning in its terrible terrible way
It seems to know
that I cannot escape
My teacher's disappointed in my playing today
Deep in my heart
only I know
it's the piano
that's a-doing

你知道天有多高吗？有时候我觉得伸手就摸得到。

2009-02-19T22:17:00.002+08:00

我是个很被动的人。
从来都没有想过要去追求自己的幸福。
然而，那也并不是因为我认为幸福会从天上掉下来，而是我从来都没有想过我会幸福。
真的。
然而，我也曾经认为自己活得很没有意义，想要抛开这一切，然后逃避。
我甚至有想过如果这一切是一个梦，那该有多好。我是这么想的。
我不够勇敢，我承认。也许永远也不会学会该这么变得勇敢。我总是想逃避现实，仿佛只要我不去面对，那问题就会自己自动消失。我总有这种错觉。然而，错觉永远只会是错觉，不可能成真。
我一次一次地受伤，一次一次地再次爬起来，一次一次地长大。却免不了还是想逃避。我甚至想逃避逃避现实不是永久的办法的现实，真的很笨吧？我就是这么一个头脑简单的人，改不了。
直到你的出现，我才慢慢开始想要面对。
因为是你让我相信，相信幸福只要伸手就能碰得到。
我要为了你而好好活下去。你是唯一能使我不想忘掉这一切，因为忘了一切，也就会忘了你。
在我最黑暗的时刻，你也是那个使我振作起来的人。幸亏有了你，不然我想我早已彻底崩溃了。
为了你，我甚至想要变得勇敢。以前的我，一定会想，别傻了，你是麻雀，还想学老鹰在大大的空中飞翔？不过，那时的我，还并不知道，其实麻雀也会有展翅高飞的时刻。
但是你带我飞翔了，使我明白，连小小的麻雀都有在天空中飞的权利。
是你让我相信，让我开始对未来有了希望。
让我觉得幸福也许不是我所想象的那么遥远。
是你使我学会怎么飞翔，教我怎么去梦想。你也给了我一颗心。
以后，也许我会哭，也许我会再次逃避，也许我的心又会碎，但至少我可以说，是幸福与我擦身而过，而不是我从来都没有看过它。
至少看到了。
至少伸手就摸得到了。

Go on, there are other worlds than this.

2009-02-18T19:41:00.004+08:00

Today was so malu.
I felt really really sleepy so I slept while eating my breakfast, slept on the MRT, slept on the bus and guess what? Smart me over here overshot my bus stop. I woke up blurrily then immediately woke up and panicked where's this place? I tried to comfort myself that no i didn't miss my stop when i knew that I was only kidding myself. So I got off at the next stop took a good look around and realised that i was at that place where Clarice brought us to eat chicken rice and we ended up having prawn noodles instead remember? And that was like 3 stops away from Nanyang bus stop! In any case I found the opposite bus stop and managed to reach school.

Nothing much happened in school today I guess? Not of any deep impression I guess. Ohyah I resumed my normal routine of drawing in class and I'm super-duper proud of myself. :D three cheers for joei!

Replied mortal's letter in class. Drew some stuff to beautify it but not sure if it worked that well ): still have to reply to kori heh trying to find nice paper. But Kori's designing skills 一番ですよ！all her letters design until damn nice. lol make me feel 自卑 with all my ugly letters.

OHyah, May baked cookies for us and this time she didn't leave them on the bus hahah. Mine got my name on it. But carina's got more chocolate chips ): but the cookie was nice. とても固くありませんです！Thank you 明日香ちゃん！♥　Next time I shall bake too! <3 style="font-style: italic;">he finally knows my name and my face hahah. At least he didn't pronounce it as JOEL which I had been called on occasions by adults who are blind enough to not see the dot on top of the i. today we did stuff on the electrons. To illustrate the point of energy levels on the different shells, the poor mouse got swung again. The funny thing is that today during the lesson all his swear words all come out "shit" "bullshit" "damn" etc you know it. And the even more amusing thing is that the class burst out into peals of laughter whenever they heard his swear words. I was smiling all the way but cos of the swear words but of the class. He even said a classic "Sibei mafan!" and the class laughed to no end. amusing really.

The thing overall is okay I think. Not that confusing just cheem and it's really different from that we learn normally. But I think I can cope. :D

I today started going crazy. you know i actually felt like buying pink vanguard sheet and make my octopus-es out of that and decorate the classroom with them. can you believe. I think I really will leh. I want to make couple caps with May. they will be black with white printed words : I ♥ May/Joei. the ♥ will be red of cos! great. now all we have to do is to find a supplier who is willing to do just 2 caps. I really want it! It shall be our christmas present to each other!

Oh and there will mostly likely be no photos for awhile cos my phone recently developed a problem of not saving stuff. so like you send me a sms i read it and then i go inbox i won't be able to find it anywhere. Same for photos. anyone out there knows what's happening to my dear phone? I have to lug my camera along to get photos now. sad. and my camera isn't even good!
I want a new camera! i swear once recession over i'll save and buy one myself! I need a camera!

Replies to tags:

WingYan: See your name is on my blog again! hahah.
WingYan: I want the photos too! hahah. really hilarious! :D
Carina: What?! A stick? Made of what? Diamond? tyvm.
Carina: UNGLAM PHOTOS! where are they? i want want want!
minhui: the pink with lace thing wasn't my idea okay! It was the teacher's!
minhui: Oh yah. sorry i didn't put your name there ): Oh and don't 暴毙 -touches table cos it's wood- cos of the schedule book thing we gave you okay!!

Afterthought
I went to WingYan's blog and read about her missing the basement.
This reminded me of the time during school holidays the band was marching downthere and there was cat shit and we were marching and then.......ah well you know they stepped on it. wow. kay this is random.

But when is life not random?

时间能让爱更坚强，或完全消失。

2009-02-17T19:33:00.002+08:00

Today's CARINA KAM ZHI QI's BIRTHDAY!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL! <3

lol. shared present with Keye Cheng and May for her. Got her a USB cup warmer from Action City and a notebook from Art Box! Think she likes it heh.

Today had recee. Went to the Chinese Garden. It was like so ulu (?) and not to mention hot. But i just went straight to a place and claimed it for our game (Tug-of-war in my case) and tada, job's done. So there was a lot of waiting time. Had jumpshots. Carina and Chang JieLin looked totally unglam i tell you. Got the photos in Carina's phone to prove it :D Walked around as it got hotter and hotter. Roamed randomly then finally it was time to go back. Saw the teachers walking with umbrellas to shield the sun away. Then I had a crazy idea and asked may if she could imagine Mr Kuo holding an umbrella and sashaying down the pavement (!) A teacher heard me -gasps- and she added details to the umbrella- being pink with frilly lace. dear gods, can you imagine that (!!!) Was so freaking tired that I slept the whole bus journey back to school.

Went home together with Wing Yan hahah and we chatted. Wing Yan's really nice to talk to! <3 But she had to get off the bus as we different routes so talked little only. so sad hahah. Wait for the umglam photos okay? All with Carina.

My finaces are in horrible shape. I just bought the GCE O LEVEL Chemistry book which was reccomended by Mr Kuo to use material to refer to for Science Olympiod. And guess what? Kit costs $30 plus (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) Awwman, I will have to guard that book with my life. I even went to buy 2 new marker pens cos I totally have none really working ones!

Have to reply letters eh.
AND I'M SO SCREWED FOR HISTORY!
):

我的爱一直都在你身边，你感觉得到了吗？

2009-02-14T14:33:00.005+08:00

aha, today's VALENTINE'S DAY!
love is offically in the air. ♥

&credits; click here.

This is a season to enjoy love and be loved!

So take your time and tell the people who really matter: I ♥ YOU!

And this does not only apply to those with lovers, this is applies to all kinds of love.

Love is a thing that has entranced generations and generations of human.

It cannot be seen, cannot heard, cannot be touched; It can only be felt.

Love can make us so happy that we'll think that we're flying.

But love can also bring us crashing down to earth without warning.

Love is what makes us feel complete; it is also the very thing that destroys us.

Love is precious; love is what keeps the world moving on.

Love is sweet yet we get hurt by it so easily.

Loving someone is giving them the key to break your heart and yet trusting them not to.

And yet more than often they do.

Love repeatedly hurts us, yet we still crave it. Want it.

Everyone of us wants to be loved. though few may admit it.

Deep within the dark corners in your mind, there will always be a voice crying out for love.

People have liken children to angels and do you know why?

Because children are untouched still, they show love freely and without thinking.

They are practically over-flowing with love.

Loving without conscious thought, without wanting anything in return.

That was what we all were. Once were.

It's sad to say this but it seems as we grow older, we hide our true feelings from others and even ourselves.

We start being less truthful to ourselves, to that little voice in our head.

Growing up, it seems has curbed our ability to love and crippled it.

As we get hurt time and again, we start to build walls around ourselves, to protect ourselves from getting hurt a second time.

But is that it?

Is that what you really want? To stop loving because you're scared of getting hurt?

你或许会说我天真，说我还不了解世面，不过我想说如果长大的代价就是会失去勇气，不敢去勇敢地爱一个人，我宁愿永远天真下去。

But if love hurts us all, why do we keep loving? Why do we keep getting in love even though we know that we will get hurt over and over again?

Because love is what keeps us going, keeps us having hope.

That little crushed bit of hope that Pandora let out of the box.

So although we know that we will get hurt, we know that our hearts will get broken again, we know that we will never be brave enough, we will still love and hope that there will be a better tomorrow.

Even after getting hurt, we will still struggle and get up eventually. And still love.

So go think about all your loved ones. Go open up your heart. And listen to it. Who do you love?

Love is precious in the sense that it makes everything else precious.

Love is beautiful in the sense that it makes everything else that bask in its glow look beautiful, instead of making the rest look dim in comparsion.

Treasure all your loved ones. Tell them how much they really matter to you.

Love is really simple; To love and be loved.

So go forth, and love.

And may you be at peace with the world.

从不曾尝试过飞翔的我，在你的身上找到了翅膀。

2009-02-13T20:26:00.006+08:00

Today was an exceptionally happy happy day!
HAPPY FRIDAY THE 13TH & VALENTINE'S DAY!

Bought many many presents for many people.
Lol actually me and may sharing chocolates to buy for whole class, and may went to buy the chocs already. and she even baked cookies (for me of course!) she brought them up on the bus, sat down, fell asleep and left all of that in the bus (!) So in the end no more. Even went to call up the bus service, but (...) May, no need to feel so guilty though! :D

Bought Toblerone for May, Carina and Min Hui.
Bought Milo packet drink for Pui Jeng.
Bought 8 packets of chocolate pocky for section; shared with michelle and gave one to michelle too. (I was the one who bought it and the auntie at the snack stall nearly thought that I was crazy and kept asking me why i needed so many packets of pocky -.-)
Bought small stuffed toy, and Kinder-Bureno for mortal.
Bought Kit-Kat for Charmaine and Charlene (my class angel and mortal respectively)
Bought Milo packet drink, Ritz Cheese crackers and Kinder-bureno for Jiayi.
Bought Pizze pretzels for Sherena and Keye Cheng.

So end result : broke )': (obviously)
but i was decidedly happy going around delivering presents to people. It was felt so fun, so happy and so.....right!

I love Valentine's Day!♥♥♥

Lol actually wanted to go write cards out for people but too lazy/tired so didn't, only wrote for Jiayi and mortal hahha. Not biased okay?

But actually i think that the people that are really truly happy during Valentine's Day are the people of POPOULAR lor. Did you see the queue? It was never-ending i tell you. 他们一定赚翻天了。

But enough of talking, let's look at my 大丰收today!
(Hover please :D)

went to band today though was not needed (?) and self-practed for like 1 hour plus and then went home. took 961 today. met kim, anna and clarissa on the bus 965 later on(!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)

Was like wah, so long never see them le. talked abit lah ahhah, turns out that they were just back from malacca on something like a school fieldtrip. LOL. missed them lots! Had to get down the bus after awhile together with kim. Talked hahah and she started talking to me about the scary hotel which had this mirror right infront of the bed (remember at the chalet?)

Then I reached my block and it was byebye. but it would had been nice to talk to kim more. heheh.

Okay byebye guys. Good night!
And don't let the bedbugs bite!

眼泪掉下的片刻，整个世界停止了转动。

2009-02-10T11:41:00.002+08:00

AHAHA today I was super touched!

I GOT A SUPER-DUPER EARLY BIRTHDAY PRESENT TODAY (!!!!)
And it's from my beloved trombone section!
Cos I didn't have enough money to buy the $30plus tuner (cos got money problems) so I didn't buy one while the rest got theirs.
Then when I opened my case, I was like,"Eh? Since when did I have a tuner?"
I thought someone had accidentally put it in my case so went to ask michelle.
Michelle (should call her ahtay) turned and smiled a crafty (?) smile and said that it was mine.
My facial expression was like o.o then O.O then o.o back again.

So it turns out that my section got one for me so it's being treated as my birthday present. so 感动when i found out. THANKS SO MUCH everyone and clarice for she was the one who came up with the idea. 谢谢你们！爱死你们了！<3

Today the sec ones came for their 1st offical band practice. Seeing the sec1s made the realisation that I was really a sec2 now sink in real hard. Ohnno, I'm so old already )':

Seeing the juniors trying to get used to their instruments made me think about the days when I was just like that and I was surprised to find how blurry and far away the images and memories were. It made me realise that wow, a year has passed just like that. Almost couldn't believe it.

Since there were only 3 of us(Theo, Michelle and me) in our section which were there in band first, the responsibilty of teaching the sec 1s how to set up instrument and how to buzz etc. Me and michelle helped out too! (actually all we did was to sit down there and interrupted theo repeatedly while she was making her complicated speech about what exaclty was the liquid that came out of the trombone.) The speech turned to be unnessesary as the juniors had already seen the spit before already. I strongly suspected that it was Michelle who did it. (Had I ever posted the incident during the sec1 cca fair thing in which Michelle went to empty all her saliva directly in front of a poor sec1 and the poor girl was so traumatised that she ran away?)

Experimented with my new tuner and the wire thing. I tried to make it pick up the tune of my voice so I put the part which is supposed to come into contact with the vibrating thing making the sound in this case, it was my throat so i put it there and started singing. Mind blanked out over what to sing so I started singing "Mari Citarah ya Singapurasa" then michelle who was sitting next to me cracked up and just started laughing. She looked so darn funny rofl.

OHyah, I'm not even sure whether I'm going to be in the Science Olympiod thing cos I indicated that I want to swap physics for either chemistry or biology and then I don't know where to check for the confirmation thing lor.

hahah minhui and may wants me to act as extra in the film that they are filming for some competition. They will be really busy for this so jiayou okay? I want to watch their end product heh.

63 days; 44 days

我想要挑战这世界。

2009-02-06T01:20:00.001+08:00

should i should i should i should should i
as you can see, i'm still undecided.

And we are supposed to give our answers by ~~tmr~~ today [edit]oops soory according to the clock it already IS tomorrow[/edit] by 5pm (!!!!)

howhowohow.

难道这一切是注定的吗？遇到你，爱上你，错过你。

2009-02-05T16:59:00.002+08:00

Okay now I have a big question;
Should I or should I not join Science Olymopiad?
Okay cause I was apparently selected for it due to the science results. And the funny thing was that I was selected for the Physics section. Do you get it? PHYSICS! and i don't like it so it's like what the hell. Yi Yan and Xin Yi were also selected; Xin Yi's was for bio (lucky lucky her) and Yi Yan's name couldn't be found on the list at all -.- But Mrs Chew said that we could swap if we wanted (and if there was enough space in the class for you) so maybe I would swap to bio/chem? maybe. I'm not sure if this would work out for me cos I'm developed a phobia of stuff with Olymopiad behind it (all thanks to the notorious Maths Olymopiad which I sucked big time at.)

And it's on a wednesday! 3.30-4.30! My free day! Gone! ohman. but it seems really interesting specially if i get into bio/chem (!!!!) so should i or should i not?

should i should i shloud i hlould shloud i shlould i shlould ishlould should i shloudh should i

Oh and today was the 1st day of CCA for the sec1s (!!!!)
NYCB's this year's batch only have around 20 people (okay no offense minhui) whereas my batch has like 28 people (without adding a few that just joined this year.)
And we (the totally cool trombone section) have 2 juniors this year! Breaking the tradition of 3 per batch. And they are both from 1/3, same class, just like michelle and me (!) <3>
I cannot remember the name of the other one but one's called jiahui. I remember cos this year the sec1 one have a lot of jiahuis i think. 1/7 got 2 already leh O:
hah but yay got juniors le and boo 我老了D:
But nevermind, clarissa and michelle soon we can kiss the saliva bowls good-bye (er i mean literally only cos if you did that it would be: ewwwwww.....)

We (carina and i) gave Pui Jeng her super-duper belated birthday present today! I was supposed to wrap but no time sorry pui jeng. But I was so creative that I took the plastic bag it came with and turned it into a wrapping sort of thing and wrapped it around the box with the box inside. It looked so cool and nice okaay (!!!)

I haven't written to my mortal for a long long time and i feel really guilty. That's all that I have done though : feeling guilty.

我努力地想回到从前，却和幸福擦肩而过。

2009-02-04T21:15:00.003+08:00

Today's 4 Feb and it's GRACE TAN HAN YI'S BIRTHDAY!
ohman, and i do miss her! wonder how's she doing. Should really meet up someday heh :D
<3 Happy birthday and many pleasant surprises!

today school let us off early for chinese new year (?!) Stayed back and practised the LA presentation thing for tomorrow. We're the 2nd group! Jiayou! Then went to causeway point with carina to buy pui jeng's (extremely late) birthday present. Hopes she likes it, spent a lot of time searching for it (!)

today mr kuo really forgot to bring his fishing rods to show us (!) rofl. He promised that he would bring them on Friday so we're waiting to see if he remembers then. Nothing really interesting happened today I guess (?) Feeling bored and sleepy... Shall post a long wordy possibly emo chinese/english post soon hahah. Freak eh.

Ohyah have to bring the Abraham Lincoln hat that YiJun made. It's so nice! YiJun's a genius to have made it. Seriously reminds me of the magician's hat I had in Rangnarok. Hahaah so cutee. But I'll have to hold it on my hand on the mrt and bus and many people will stare at me. And I scared will crumple it. But I'm not as bad as Min Hui who has to take a cane. LOL. and she'll hold it and everyone will think that she biantai rofl.

Shall go find something to entertain myself. lala~
P.S Get ready for many juicy scenes you won't want to miss; Min Hui and Yi Jun crying out for help and getting whipped and kicked. A very angry and rude May and a Carina who acts cool. And lastly, me who dies with a hat.

你的呼吸声；我的催眠曲。

2009-02-02T23:45:00.002+08:00

Today was another interesting day in the weird life of joei.

1) Science Lesson -(Chemistry)
Mr Kuo was talking about Giant molecular structures when he talked about graphite. And then he said this (which he said that was not supposed to be sexist but it still sounded sexist anyway)
"Girls don't go fishing, unlike boys, so you guys probably won't understand this that much."
It turns out that some special fishing rods are coated with graphite which conducts electricity so if you fish during a thunderstorm with one of that....well, you know what happens to you.

2)Home econs
Here dear darling joei mistakenly thought that today was practical and hence happily did not bring her apron, cloths and container (which are basically everything you need for home econs). Was given the black face by Mrs Lee (and yah, I knew that it was my fault and everything)And it just felt so wrong cooking without my apron on. Cooked Hainan chicken rice together with Chang Jie Lin and Rachel cos got odd number then we just grouped together and cooked. Mrs Lee fried the chicken skin so will get oil for us to cook with the rice for better flavour. Then everyone started aiming for the chicken skins instead. Then when it was announced that we could eat the skins, everyone crowded around there and ate the skin (I was one of the first) and screaming, "Ah! it's so sinful!" but we all still ate it anyway. The chicken took darn long to cook. Since i had no container, i put my portion into Chang Jie Lin's container. Thank you and I'm so sorry! Ate the whole thing together with Chang. it was okay though charmaine and yirong said that theirs was disgusiting. But mine was fine I guess, nothing super delicious but not revolting either.

3) Drama
We were spilt into two classes and I was in Mr Nick Ng's class. I'm not really sure what happened but he started talking to us about gays. Yeah, that's right, your eyes didn't fool you; gays. He told us that when he used to own his own drama company, at night he and his partner would go down to Maxwell Hawker Centre for supper sometimes. The food was great, but the down side was that the hawker centre was inhabited by gays. So went he and his friend (both males) walked down the aisle there, they are being stared/gawked/eyed by the gays. Creepy. And apparently, there was this club of gays who had this clubhouse. Wing Yan asked,"Then did you go in?" Then we all roared in laughter. Imagine him as a gay! ahhah. Charmaine and Wing Yan kept thinking sick about the lines we were given like;

A: No!
B: But I thought you might......
A: Okay, try again.
B: Oh.

They giggled away thinking sick. Can you imagine? Nick Ng was like so er. hahah.

4) Contact time
Mr Mac came in for his thumbdrive and he got into this imaginary punch fight with MrKuo which was extremely interesting.

5)Japanese Class
There was this Hwa Chong guy who came into our class for make-up lessons so he was like the thorn among the roses. Clarissa was extremely interested in him heh. (hint hint) Wanted to sabo him even. But he looked really uncomfortable. Aww the poor guy. Pity him.

i gotta to sleep le~ Byebye~ Maybe your dreams be sweet~

渐渐地，你不再叫我亲爱的。

2009-02-01T16:48:00.004+08:00

I'm really happy by all your encouraging tags!
They really made my day! <3
Thank you thank you!
I love all of you, you guys are the greatest!
My response to all is that:
Yes! I'll make it! I won't let anyone down, least of all myself. I can do it and I will. It took me a long time to understand all of that, and in the end I made it. Actually maybe I think that after not getting into syf, I seem to have grown up more in one day than all the 13 years put together. I really learnt a lot, so maybe it's really all for the better. I've gotten a new attitude and I like it! And I'm going to fly. And I'm going to prove it to everyone! Yeah! I love you all, for giving me support! I won't forget it and I won't let you guys down. I'll fight on! Just wait and see.
!

Today's my aunt's 2nd chemo treatment for her cancer. Actually on 初二, I went to her house to visit her. She looks really different now. Gotten a lot skinner and her hair's all dropping off so she wears a bandana. It's really a blow to my aunt, losing all that hair. She 很爱美的, and she's got totally cool fashion sense so she can mix and match and get totally gorgeous outfits. And she's a skilled hairdresser too though she doesn't open a salon. So I wonder what went through her mind when she help my mom cut her hair the other day (actually my mom refused but she insisted as she said even though she's ill, she can still do the things that she like). But she will get better I believe. Get well soon okay?

Today's 初七，also known as 人日 which means it's every Chinese's birthday! so HAPPY BIRTHDAY EVERYONE (!!!!!)

The other day went webcaming with 婷rofl. Everybody was there at their house for gathering so fun lah. Hahah. Their webcam finally worked. Saw so many people! 婆婆kept talking to mom on lol. Saw Jayden (he was wearing some kind of ben-10 t-shirt) and he was so cute. Even called my mom 姑姑and his pronounciation was so darn cute! 婷kept making retarded movements like rabbit-earing 婆婆 and shaking her bunny stuffed toy in front of the webcam. Made me want to squash her bunny. It was so funny then everyone made their way in front of the comp to say 新年快乐 to us. Kept waving until 手酸 heh. they that side so 热闹lorwas so envious. I want to be there too! T~T Then benny kept shying away from the webcam saying that he was camera-shy rofl but in the end he was caught in the webcam hahah. I kept laughing when I saw him. Everyone looked so funny! Chinese new year in Malaysia so fun~ Really miss them alot but must wait for June Holidays to go back... 5 more months! T~T

Okay, I've got to go now. Enjoy your 人日！
<3

Ohyah minhui and michelle I want to chop your hair off! Heh.

我害怕，所以我没有勇气。

2009-01-30T20:45:00.008+08:00

Today was another rollercoaster day and oh boy I wasn't feeling that well throughout the whole ride. But now that it's over, it feels like a dream, so surreal, that any moment I might just wake up and find that nothing had ever happened.

I don't want to dwell on what happened but I realised that I have to thank many people before I lose my chance to.

Thank you theo, for always being so helpful and staying back during lunch to tutor me for overture and hymn. Thank you for not giving up on me when I had already given up on myself. Thank you for believing in me. Thank you for always being there and willing to tell me about your troubles. Thank you for all the encouragement you have given me, all the good advice on how to play the trombone properly. Thank you for treating me as a close junior, thank you for all the things you have ever done for me, caring more about my audition than you cared about your own. Thank you for crying with me. Thank you for all the tears you have shed for me, all the effort that you have put into me. I'm sorry for not being able to pass the audition even after all the time and effort you have spent on me. I'm sorry for not being able to play during syf with you. Thank you. You're a really really good senior! <3 Thanks for telling me I could do it.

Thank you clarice for being such a comfort during auditions and not being scary at all. Thanks for all the ever-so-useful advice on playing. Thank you for being patient with me. Thank you for being willing to tutor me during lunch this tuesday too. Thank you for trying to break the news to me gently. Thank you for being a nice SL. And for being nice to me and accepting my interview for the human organs survey and for answering questions about the science SIA proposal. And thanks for trying to cheer me up.

Thank you wanting for the hug today. Thank you for helping me. Thank you for the many lame jokes we cracked together. Thank you for the LA notes. Thank you for introducing me to Terry Pratchett (his books rock my socks!). Thank you for the many memories during band camp. I still remember Irony. OH and thanks for the snacks!

Thank you pam for being a fun senior! I've always really liked you since the first time I met you haha. You're very fun to be around with! Elmo and Cookie Monster! Cookie's cuter right? Thanks for just being there and for being thirds with me rofl. Don't worry you can make it too! You're Pam, you can do anything! Jiayou! You'll always be my senior! Thanks for the hug!

Thank you clarissa and michelle for being such loveable section-batchmates! You guys are the coolest! Thanks for trying to make me un自闭 and always trying to make me look on the brighter side of things when I refused to walk out of the darkness. Thanks for supporting me. Thanks for all the wonderful memories! Thanks for having such funny nicknames (ssa and ahtay) and no thanks for calling me peewee -.- Thanks.....for everything. And standing for my lame jokes!

Thank you trombone section for being my section! For having a place for me somewhere. For being the section that I think is the best! With nice nice seniors!

Thank you May and Min Hui for chatting with me the day I was at one of my most downs. Thanks for giving advice. Thanks for just listening and trying to make sense of what I said and trying to understand and to help in your little own ways. Thanks for trying to make me seee the light at the end of the tunnel (torchlight remember?) Thanks thanks. I'm glad that we are friends!

And thank you to the person whom doesn't know all this but was the only one managed to stop me from wishing that I could forget about everything and be a happy fool. And prevented me from breaking down completely.

And thank you everyone I have ever loved. I'm still hanging in there for you guys.

And here I have something to say;
Even though I'm not in syf, even though they say that i'm not good enough. I'm still going to master overture and hymn no matter what. I'm still going for lunch practs, I'll still practice hard and I will still try my best. The only difference is that I'm not going to be there on syf but praying for the whole band. That's the only difference. And that's not really that important as opposed to mastering the songs! I'll move forward now. I will try my best. and even if i fail again, I'll fail trying my best and knowing that I had done so. That's all that matters.

I will try. I will prove to myself that I can do it.

Baby birds fly unsteadily, and sometimes even drop down when they first try to fly. But in the end, do they not fly and soar in the bright blue sky? Or do they just mope around after the first attempt and never try to flap their wings ever again?

I only know that if it's the latter, there would be no more birds flying in the sky.

So even though I'm not brave, even though I know that I will get hurt again, and that I will want to runaway again, even though I know that I will still cry, I will still try.

And I will fly.

我不知道该做痛苦的智者，还是快乐的傻瓜。

2009-01-26T17:08:00.003+08:00

Today's 1st day of chinese new year.
I'm back home after visiting my father's side of relatives. Saw everybody again lala and noticed how they have changed. They are all people I would really love to be very close to, to know more about but they are not. I just really like them. Darren has grown so tall ohmygod. (Even taller than me though he was shorter/~~around the same height~~ the last time I saw him which was what, 1/2 year ago?) D: Even 智智哥has got a girlfriend already (!) though I haven't seen the lucky girl yet hehe. Saw 姑姑 hahha.

Oh yah, you know you have to say something 吉利 words to your parents then get your ang baos right? Guess how mine went:

To dad;
新年快乐! ......
(deep in thought).... er er er....
(still thinking) ........
(gives up) Er.......
May you get promoted, salary increase, and get a lot of year end bonus!*
dad's face : -.- but i still got my ang bao lalala.
*Note；I was trying to think of some chim chim impressive chinese vocab to say that. but as you can all see, I failed miserably in my attempt.

To mom;
新年快乐！永远青春美丽(mom's face was like this :)), 还有永远瘦瘦！(became like this :D)
In the end of cos i got my ang bao. 拍马屁always works no matter what :D

//
But it wasn't all sunshine and roses either.
My aunt has got cancer. I'm not sure what kind only that it's severe. So we couldn't see her; she had to stay at home.
Vivien and Brenda has to spend their chinese new year in a hospital cos their grandma has got cancer and is currently hospitalised.
Actually I wasn't really supposed to know about my aunt's cancer. But I knew. Since the 1st day they themselves knew. Well the funny thing is that the things that adults want to keep from me, I will just easily know about it. I'm not sure why. But I just hear whatever they say to each other over the phone and tada, I know it all. They always seem to think that if they don't tell me, I'll never know. When in actual fact, I know as much as them. And I cannot show that I know.

I really like my aunt. She's real nice. She always cuts my fringe prettily for me. I cannot really imagine a world without her. No, it's not like i see her everyday. She's like someone from another world to me; a world different from my normal, everyday-life but someone that I will see during special days and I really like her. She has always been there, just there. It had always been a comfort to know that she's there, a someone in my life.

But her health has always been frail. There was once her abdominal was in so much pain that they had to call for an ambulance to send her to the hospital. 智智哥was so scared that he cried.

And now she has got cancer. Cancer. And she will need to undergo treatment. Her hair has already start to fall off. It is nerve-wrecking mentally. And it isn't even comfirmed if she will be able to live through this. But she has to, she really has to. And she will.
She didn't even tell everyone about her cancer only my mother and a few others as she didn't want to kick up a big fuss. but today my uncle had to tell everyone as my aunt couldn't come for the Chinese New Year gathering that everyone comes to. He was scolded by one of my aunts for not telling them earlier.

The thing about sickness is that it not only affects the person in question, it affects every single person/thing that has ever known he/she. It's harsh on both sides. And all you can do is to see her quietly wasting away without being able to do a single damn thing to help her. Not a single thing. It eats away at you, gnaws at your heart. And you cannot do a thing to save her while she's dying. Not a thing. That's the part. The part that drives people crazy. The helpless-ness of yourself. It makes you want to kill yourself. Being so helpless.

I don't understand. Why must there be sickness, illness and diseases? Why must they happen on our loved ones? Why? Why should some people fall asleep wondering if they would live to see the next sunrise? Why? Who chose these people? Who said that they were the ones who had to suffer?

I know why. There must be suffering in order to have joy in this world. Without one, there is no other. But that doesn't stop me from thinking about how unfair this is. From stating how unreasonable all of these is.

But what has happened has happened. There's no use lamenting. The only way is forward, to live life bravely, to cherish every single waking moment, to experience all the simple pleasures of life we couldn't live without. All your loved ones.
All I can tell you is that nothing is certain forever. You may lose your loved ones before you know it. Your world might fall in pieces right before your eyes. So just go cherish this moment. Go think about all that you have ever loved. Before it's too late. Go do the things you've always wanted to do it. Leave nothing to regret.

The true heros are those who know that they are going to die but they still set out bravely to meet their doom while making sure that there's nothing left for them to regret.

And I wish peace and happiness to all the people and their loved ones in the world.

我不爱，我不痛，我不懂。

因为爱，才会痛。我想如果有一天，我得了重病，应该不会告诉任何一个人吧，因为不想让你们担心，难过。只会自己一个人躲在角落里偷偷地哭吧。我也不知道我会不会抵抗病毒到底，或者会利用那些剩下的时间去好好地活下去，这样我上了天堂才能骄傲地告诉神父，“我好好地活过了！一点遗憾也没有！” 有点奇怪的想法吧? 不过，我觉得生命不在于长短，而是活得值不值得，精不精彩。
以后，我死后，我要我的葬礼上，大家都是开开心心的，来庆祝我活过，而不是我的离去。我要他们永远记住我活着的样子，而不是我死后的样子。我要让大家知道，我武诗璇，一个稍微奇怪的女孩子，在这世界上活过。我只需要这样而已，仅仅如此。

我要大家知道我曾经存在过。

所以，请相信我，还有我们的爱情。

2009-01-25T16:59:00.005+08:00

Changed my blogsong to 我还想她。 ♥
Pui jeng didn't like my old one. but many people liked it lor go see my tagboard :D
But decided to go for a change so changed to this one. Wonder if Pui Jeng likes it now? Heh.

ohyah, a great big HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR'S EVE &
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR IN ADVANCE!
cos i might not be able to on comp tomorrow. going to 拜年！heheh.

My mom's sick though ): But now's better already yay.
Later going over to Uncle Bankut's house to have 团圆饭！We always have it there. OHmygod, i can already taste the tomyum steamboat /e8 -drools-
AHH! I want to eat it! TOMYUM TOMYUMTOMYUM(!!!!!)

Shall go and watch onepiece on pps :D cos i finished reading air gear le! 一番ですね！
Byebye, and may you get as many ang baos as you like!

我们的故事才刚刚开始，不应该就这样划上句号。

2009-01-24T16:51:00.003+08:00

我想我真的是头脑简单吧。

I'm sorry. I only realised today how bad I am at communicating, how clueless I am . I'm sorry if i leave you exasperated. I've no idea. but then again, I always had no idea. I hate myself for always saying sorry sorry sorry but there was nothing else I could say. Or was there?

那三个字我已说了太多遍，不会再说了。

Keep running and let those tears be carried away by the wind.

2009-01-23T20:16:00.002+08:00

Today couldn't go back to greenwood as had band ):
The music director of the musical Cinderella was coming to listen to us play O.O
There was the writing of the dui lian(!)
We (Michelle, Keye Cheng, Sherena and me) went down to the podium late, as we had to play the national athemn and something really distressing happened there. Jane don't feel sad. We all stand on your side!
haha. then we went down and just sat there for awhile until MrKuo/yls came and told us to not just sit around but actually write sth. As there was not enough red paper for all four of us, we shared one. The four NYCB girls of 2o7 joined forces and mixed their creative juices and came up with the following:

This is what you get when 4 obessed with NYCB girls get together.
Don't ever try this at home. (we dirtied the whole floor shhh..)

Here are what the rest of 2o7 did:

Korean form of dui lian? (As you all can probably tell, this is by Charmaine:D)

MOO MOO~! Yiyan drew this so cute ahaha.

Then the couple (Hui Peng and Wing Yan) started advertising their ccas.
This one's Wing Yan's. For those who needs translation, it says "Saint John's Ambulance Bridgade(sp-.-) I love you!"
And here's a random picture of Hui Peng (!) See you're famous!

The Chinese New Year concert was okay. Bwahah. Mr Mac go dress up as the 财神爷 rofl. but at least he throw the candy far far. Me and may got a chocolate coin each. But i squashed it and chocolate splurted out onto my whole hand (!) actually that happened to rachel too but i laughed at her so i think this is called 报应 T~T

Then met the whole section for section lunch together. Val and Quinza came along too. Went to this rather ulu (?) place to eat chicken rice but got prawn noodles@ $3. The aunties were scary. practically touting already. Damn creepy. But the 虾面 was okay but no sambal chilli T~T such a pity.

Went back to school. Had band. Then the musical director of Cinderella came to listen to us. Hhaah. he was quite nice. He suggested moving the oboes and bassoons to the middle of the band and ms chong said that the sound was clearer or sth like that. oh and he talks rather softly too.

After band which ended @ 2.30, we stayed back for auditions (!!!!!!!) I was like the second last to go? which was rather horrifying. but clarissa switched with me as her parents were fetching her home. thanks loads clarissa~ but in the end only had time to audition for one song. chose overture (cos that's my worst one) then played. I think i screwed it up but clarice was a great comfort. thank you clarice for not being scary!

Went home, bathed, ate etc. really looking forward to the weekends! 4 wholesome days w/o school yay whoo hah!

Chinese New Year's coming and ang baos, here i come!

The day my world fell apart.

2009-01-20T21:04:00.002+08:00

What the crap is up with today?
EVERYONE'S in a foul mood.
EVERYTHING bad happens in one go.
Today was so horrible.

Tensions were rising, crisis here and there and everywhere.
Never in my life had i once had such a bad day.
It was the worst the classic.
Why did everything come crashing down today? Why? This is stupid.
My heart felt damn heavy. I've never felt this way before.
Okay. So many bad things happened today but I'm not going to go into details.
Let's just pray that tomorrow will be a better day.

扁你。

2009-01-18T21:21:00.004+08:00

Today woke up @12pm plus.
As usual.
Felt damn weird (Okay i admit that i feel weird everysingle day but stillll) Had this some kind of tuna bread for lunch. Went online chatted and played ragnarok whoo. Ben was feeling particularly kind today so he decided to help me hunt for my equip. He even explained the stats to me (Hah, sensei!) -For those think have absolutely no idea what i'm talking about/think that i'm talking in some kind of alien language please skip the whole of the remaining paragraph- lala~ about the vit str int luk etc. dk if i can remember. but i've got this vague idea of each......

Then before sensei could impart anymore knowledge to me, I had to go to causeway point with my parents to buy clothes.sad. lol. bought adrian's present. Some kind of Battle Bakugan toy thing. Whatever. as long as he likes it. He's currently playing with it as i type.

I bought 2 blouses. ohmygod darn pretty one's white with black stars pretty pretty pretty (!!!)
But the other one is long and need a belt. the one we used to try it out was the belt of a skirt. so they cannot sell it to me seperately but that belt's like The One to go with my shirt ): So now i've to look for a thick patent belt (black) I think. <3
Went to the watch shop to fix up mom's watch. dad asked if i wanted a watch (when i just lost one previously?). I told him there wasn't the one that i liked. I only like a particular white Baby-G watch heh. Fussy ain't i?

Found the foodcourt retardedly sian so we went to admiralty's food court (not that it was anybetter just that it was more convenient to us and we were all tired wanting to go home asap) ate tomyum mee hun kuay okay i guess(?) Spicy. Talking about tomyum, i'm excited at the prospect of once again eating tomyum steamboat yay yum whoo. /e8

Came home sprint-shower and on-ed the comp but now i've got nothing much to do. -'s not online ): Probably went to popo house. ~.~

AHHHH and tomorrow's monday (!!!!!!) again
|:

我只会爱你一辈子。

2009-01-17T23:35:00.000+08:00

Er.
Today was Adrian Wee's birthday party (!) @ my house of cos.
Mom cooked many food for he and his friends to eat i.e. char bee hoon, nuggets, fried chicken wings and sausauges etc blah. Damn yummy i tell you hahah. And even pizza from Pizzahut! rofl. And there's only one word to sum it up : Delicious! and i went to steal the nuggets.

LOL. it was quite okay as a party could get. his friends came, they looked around, screamed about for abit (I didn't know that boys could be so noisy) and mostly settled. All the time I was hiding in my room very to act all cool. rofl. didn't think that it worked very well O:

Hahah. I ate alot of pizza and made someone really very jealous rofl. The kids didn't eat very much lor. It was like they came to the table there and there was this pile of food there. they went away, and there was still this pile of food there. Even the pizza o.o Tsktsk A bunch of kids ignorant about the Great Power of The Mighty Pizza (!) hmpf.

Then there was the cake. Full chocolate i tell you. frigging sinful. 100%yummy. Served chilled ooh. lala~ so my bro got a pile of presents too but he go open all in front of his friends. Weirdo kiddo. He still doesn't understand the pleasure you get when you collect all your presents and pile them in a corner and you look at them happily. It just feels so good and you'll be so happy without even needing to open up the presents. (At least that's how i feel)

I haven't bought him his present yet. but i've told him to think about what he wants and i'll buy it for him if i can afford it (budget:$12) -laughs-

Happy birthday boy!

私は飛ぶことができると信じています。

2009-01-17T17:58:00.003+08:00

你曾经在全世界的最顶尖。你很快乐，一直往上飞翔。那时的你不相信这世界有所谓的不愉快。因为你很快乐，所以选择不相信别人的痛苦。因此，你一直往上飞，一直飞。你的周围都是一片光。不过，你还不满足，一直想找到更美的天空。于是，你飞。

可是，你万万没有想到飞得越高，摔下来的时候，就会越痛，失去得越多。结果，有一天你摔了下去。

你的翅膀破了，你的心，就像个从高处掉下去的玻璃瓶一样碎了。你终于体会到了什么叫痛，什么叫伤心，什么叫黑暗。这时的你开始埋怨上帝，为什么让你掉下去？为什么不让你继续飞翔？为什么对你这样不公平？

你掉入谷底，周围都是黑暗。你不明白，为什么你的世界突然变成了这样？于是，你哭泣，在黑暗中待了很久。等有一天，你鼓起了勇气，想要走出这片黑暗。可是当你要踏出第一步的时候，你犹豫了，你害怕了。你说你害怕，因为太黑暗了。你说你害怕，因为怕到了外面，你又会再受伤，再次地跌入黑暗，你哭着说，你会承担不了的。你说你不要有任何的改变，你宁可待在黑暗里，也不想再受伤。你说，你因为跌倒过了一次，所以再也没有勇气去尝试第二次。你说你害怕，所以你没有勇气。你说，这都是黑暗的错，都是黑暗是你受伤。于是，你因为害怕黑暗而不肯从黑暗中走出来。不过，亲爱的，我想问，难道你要为了害怕受伤，而把自己关进黑暗里，从此放弃飞翔？难道你真的认为永远待在黑暗里，你就不会受伤了吗？那为什么你还在哭泣？为什么我还听得到血正一滴一滴地从你的心里滴出来？

亲爱的，请别把黑暗当成你的借口。其实，你并不是没有勇气也不是因为害怕黑暗。你真正害怕的是你走出去以后，你又失败了，你只是没有勇气去面对失败的自己。你其实仍然有着你的那双翅膀，你其实还能飞翔，还能再次回到你的那片天空。只是你害怕失败，所以你不尝试，也不再飞翔。其实，真正把你关进黑暗的人，是你。只是我不明白你为何那么害怕失败？

没有了失败，又哪来的成功？Success is not a destination, but a journey.成功其实不是一个终点，它是一个旅途。从失败得来的成功，才会让你感激，让你珍惜。

所以，我的朋友，请别害怕黑暗，因为黑暗的存在只是为了让你更清楚地看到光明。

所以，飞翔吧！
去找回属于你的那片天空！

一月の宝宝。

2009-01-17T00:14:00.003+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ADRIAN WEE! :D

And rochelle, joan, chang jielin and pui jeng and all the january babies~
Happy birthday!♥
Last time in primary school I didn't really know anyone whose birthday was in january but now it's like so many(?) Haha. Talking about which, I still owe a lot of people a lot of presents and money.
Darn it.

RM 3.50猪肉粉

2009-01-16T23:30:00.003+08:00

rofl! This is just so freaking hilarious!
Bwahah. I was doing my LA projectwork thing. Got bored of thinking about questions. So I went to ask benny some of the questions that i have written.

Here're my questions; (Copyrighted yeahs?)

Selling of kidneys to the highest bidder:
Society-based perspectives:
1)Do you think that organs selling will become
a common practice in future?
2)How do you view trading or selling of organs?
3)Will you be willing to buy/sell organs?
4)What is the
highest price that you will go to?
5)Do you think that the organ selling system currently
is a fair one? Do you approve of organ selling?
(If not, who do you think is more at fault? The seller/ buyer?)

Here're his replies:
1)no,cause now already
2)trading or selling just for filling the stomach
3)yes..i like to eat pig organs
4)rm3.50
5)yes..approve

LOL(!!!)
Do you understand it? He thinks that I was talking about PIG ORGANS!
ohmygod. i'm laughing as i type this.
LOL.

Let us fly, fly to the other world.

2009-01-15T18:04:00.001+08:00

Today at sections was like really very funny. We started planning a section overseas trip suggested by Shi Min/Samantha rofl yayyay. I think most probably to genting (?) Clarissa didn't go there before. -nods- But genting's super fun and super cool. And the internet cafes are expensive too $15 per hour): er. but it would be cool to go to an island e.g.pangkor island. It would be really fun too! :D hmm but they want to wait until our batch graduate first then go cos by then 长大了, shld be able to go lol.But that's like 3 years later (!) Clarice said that she thought that it might be next year so very-de unconfirmed (?) but whatever. we're going to go sometime! Oh they might want to wait until Shimin/Samantha got their driving license first so we can drive down to malaysia ooh. but must wait wait wait......
I just know that it's going to be really fun! And I get to see someone probably.

Oh theo passed me the caramel corn snacks I asked her to help me buy from kiddy palace yum yum. and very cheap too, only $0.80. It's worth the money! yumyum.
Gave one packet to my mortal hee and left the other one for my brother. See ain't i good?

LOL. go play ragnarok le.
momo dear here i come :D

想跟你一起飞翔。

2009-01-12T21:41:00.003+08:00

Today was in short, another really weird day.
Despite having slept for only a few hours, I felt really energetic. Much more energetic than when I slept longer. Weird or what?
Today first period was chinese and had to write compo. Then Idk why but i wrote until very very happy and I started smiling to myself (am i very much mistaken or is that the 1st symptom of madness?) Minhui saw it and was creeped out. oh god am i really turning mad or sth?
Then during lunch I went to the Noodle Stall and requested to buy $1 of wanton cos I really hate the wanton mee de noodle then the auntie really very kind, she gave me this whole bowl of soup, many wantons, and even some vegetables! Everything just short of the noodles that I hate (!) So good. I was like so 感动。

Then during LA went to watch this movie called 'Mississippi Burning'. The movie watched until like 1/4 only then had to stop watching. quite interesting ehh. Looking forward to LA tomorrow hehs.
During science lesson mr kuo let us see the Tim & Moby video clips again and as usual there was this really lame joke at the end of it and Hui Peng loves it a lot. Kept laughing rofl. "No, that's not right." The voice person rolled the word around really weirdly retarded lol.
Oh and Mr K came real close to outbreaking in XXXXs today but he didn't instead he said basket! I think many of us understand what that means.

Oh and there was JAPANESE CLASS today with aoi sensei.
LOL and today was still the cooking class thing like how to say how to cook this etc blah blah and she gave us watch the followiing. super-duper retarded;

rofl. retarded thing. the mother look damn funny bwahaha.
felt really really awake in class. Oh man what's happening to me? Weird and even weirder than ususal (!) Went to the library and said hello to the uncle there. He remembered me which was like well, a surprise. borrowed Conan hahah under the influnence of a certain someone.
Walked home alone without may the traitor. I still haven't forgiven her yet. hmpf.
Got really bored, started singing the japanese song ( i was really very high today), then the japanese days de song too. got abit bored of repetition, then moved on to Korea's 三只熊. Of cos without the movements and everything but i still think many people stared at me but i was bored what..

歌はとでもかわいいですね！♥
！

闭上眼，想像着此时此刻，你就在我的身边。

2009-01-11T20:15:00.004+08:00

Hello.
This morning woke up @ 12 noon (!) Heh, sleep too much le until my eyes swollen. Looked freaking gross okay. (-.-)
Then mom announced that she felt like going to plaza singapura, so off we went. I think that it had almost been a year since we last went to plaza singapura (The last time we came, it was to buy a tap to replace the bathroom's spoiled one). 面白いですか？
Went to the food court for lunch obviously, but since I had a late breakfast, I barely touched my food. Nibbled about 1/4 and donated the rest to my dad who accepted it more than willingly. (I have this to admit: The grilled chicken was really very delicious, even to my filled stomach.)
Had 芒果冰for desert yummy. Ate like 1/2 if it bwahah.(Whatever happened to the bloated stomach?)
Walked around for abit. Oh and did you know that plaza singapura has like this enormous (no exaggeration here) yamaha music school? Sold instruments here. Saw french horn(toot!), baritone (val&meian!) and guitar(may!) No trombones though ):
Bought a pair of shorts @ I.P. Zone. とでも prettyの！Mom bought clothes too. Walked walked walked. There was this level in which all the shops sold toys and figurines! Very cool i tell you. My brother who has recently become a new memeber of the Starwars Fan Club was like so excited (?!) He wanted to get figurines for his new room. He's going to get his own room finally at the age of 10. I got mine at the tender young age of 4. Bwahahah. Bravo me.
Then at the basement was this place that sold Hokkaido ice cream♥ So I ate green tea icecream! yumyum. Oh mom bought the pouch for me you know the one yirong bought and later sold to carina! Hah, and about time too. Had been wanting it for like since last year?
Bwahaha. So I was a happy little girl today.
Returned home no one was even feeling hungry so had porridge for dinner just for the sake of having dinner (-.-) Watched a bit of The Terminal. Seems a really nice movie. dad kept saying how nice it was.

So I came online got bombarded with questions of er is what does the japanese words of the tee-shirt that's selling at yirong's blogshop say is it vulgar etc blah blah. so i was like no i don't think that it is it isn't even remotely close to bakayaro probably just the name of the black round thing on the tee (see no.6) so don't worry too much michelle. oh yah yirong&grace are you reading this? See the above? i want advertising fees ya know.

Oh and I'm being abandoned just right now.
Overall I'm feeling real fine. Real fine ya know.

I want to fly and touch the sky.

2009-01-10T14:40:00.006+08:00

Okay I know that this post is like so totally random but just please bear with me for awhile as i am still going to post it even though i know how random this is going to be.

I forgot to tell you guys this; I GOT MY LONG AWAITED SECTION TEE!
And it's so pretty.
The only down-side is that it costs 23 bucks so i'll have to start fasting real soon ):
BUT it's still so pretty(!!!!)

I wore it to sleep yesterday night yay. very comfy leh. but it's too freaking big hahah.
Then Theo sms-ed and it turns out that she was wearing the section tee too ahaha. A bunch of overly-enthu people. I told that it was too big and when i wore it, it would be like I wasn't wearing pants. Theo 误会, (okay I know that this is going to sound really wrong) and said 'Oh my. Don't do that!' (-.-) as if i would. I'm not that stupid you know. though i know many people may beg to differ.

Hahah. Talking about theo, she's really enthu about being a grandangel rofl. You should have seen them hyper-ing cos they saw her. But i've to admit that her grandmortal's really funny.
She went to ask Theo, 'Do you have a younger nickname? Whenever I think of grandangel, i see a grandma with wings.' rofl.

Stuck with Chemical toy car proposal now. It's a freakingly weird proposal.
Need to put Introduction(?), Results (where the hell can we get the results from? -.-) etc & blah.
Went to ask Clarice, sent her the file. and she was like omg like report D: She finds it weird too. So i guess that it's really weird. Oh thank you clarice for helping me! :D

Am supposed to do art now but i'm just too lazy to do so zzz.

已经是一个月了！

2009-01-09T12:36:00.003+08:00

I'm currently in school now.
Carina was just saying that she was such a good person as she helped the sec 1s who were too scared to go into class by asking us to go out too.
Then we walked back into the class as then there was a new letter on the whiteboard.
It was for her. So she sort of helped her own mortal (?)
Then now she's hyper-ing cos she now knows that her angel is supposedly quite short (we caught a glimpse of her and her friend)
My mortal haven't reply yet ):
I'm starting to think that she didn't get the letter -.-

Oh quick do reply :D

I'm happy cos it's friday! The end of the week(!) And also for another unknown reason. :DD
♥♥♥

Oh and michelle, I'm not PEEWEE thankyouverymuch.

被爱的人不用道歉。

2009-01-08T22:00:00.005+08:00

Today was the auditions (!)
I was the first to go.
It was really scary. And I think that I screwed up :X. Big time.
Ohmygod, I'm just so -what-

Oh and now I'm stuck with LA assignment!
Compo, 死ね. You have made your maker(!) You shall perish.
OHman, I really hate compositions!
D:

And there's going to be SHOW-AND-TELL during chinese tmr can you believe it? Man I got nothing to show and tell about (!!!) and to think I only knew about this today night -.-
I hate this.

谁和我一样，等不到他的谁？

2009-01-06T11:16:00.004+08:00

Today was like er normal?
Oh we had LA and saw our new LA teacher, Miss Diana Sim.
She's okay lah I guess. cannot judge yet but hope so :D

Okay today was the CCA day for the sec 1s to walk around, know the ccas and sign up for auditions for those ccas that were needed. They had the cca concert, I still remember last year's. Band performed last. They performed in band uniform <3 I was actually supposed to go dancing but I couldn't make it for the rehersals.
After the CCA concert, tAllhe performers came back and we had main band outside the band room. Which was so cool. Oh and the third trombones (including me!) all sat on 2 stacked-up seats! Lol. Wanting at first sat on three, but unstable so she had to take away one. And for once, the whole section was present. All nine of us. Finally. We practised then Mr Matthew Lim came by and asked why we weren't downstairs advertising so we went down to advertise. The atmosphere was like so high then we walked around asking everybody to join band! Even peopple like May and Hui Peng! hahah. Literally went crazy. Had a lot of fun!

Then during the announcements time, it was decided that brasses' sec 1 had to do the auditions first through a game of scissors-paper-stone -.- and sudddenly it was decided that trombones had to go first o.o Damn weird okay. man damn damn damn nervous (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) Must play national athemn and school song. In front of all the SLs summore!
AHHH, I think I will most definitely die
D:
Goodbye。

一辈子的好朋友

2009-01-05T22:05:00.008+08:00

Okay, you should know that this is addressed to you if you're seeing this. The both of you.

I'm sorry if I neglected you. I really didn't know it at that time, I swear. I'm sorry, I really am.
This is my first time doing this all, so I guess that I'll make mistakes somehow. But I never thought that my mistake would include you at all. I never intended to hurt you in anyway, really that would be the last of my wishes. It pains my heart to even make you sad in any kind of way. I was only trying to share my joy with you. Perhaps I was too wrapped up in my joy to read what your reactions meant. Maybe I overlooked your unhappiness. I don't know. I don't know why this has distanced us. I'm really sad to find out about this. But I'm trying, trying hard. Did you see? I'm already trying to the right this mistake that I've done. I understand it now. That was just a phrase.

I wasn't obessed. I was just really very happy. I'm sorry if I neglected your feelings. I had no clue.
And now I just want you to know that this doesn't change anything. Didn't and will not. All that change was that I had another one more important person in my heart. That's all. No one decreased in importance at all.

And every single time I read what you wrote, my heart felt as though it was being sliced apart. why has it come to this?

I refuse to let our friendship be scarred by this. You're really my bestest friends ever. I really treasure the time we have together.
Remember, I'll always be by your side no matter what.
ILY<3

青井先生はとでもかわいいですよ！

2009-01-05T21:50:00.003+08:00

Todays was another weird day as well.
Mr Kuo talked to us about many things. Oh and about this Wee Su Kim girl who publically said bad stuff about this other singaporean blogger, Derek Wee. I've never even heard about this before, but apparently it was quite the uproar.

Oh and there were other stuff but rather lazy to menion about them now -.-

Today was Monday, which meant it was time for my very 1st japanese class in 2oo9 (!)
I would be going there without May and Siew Ting cos those traitors abandoned me and stuck to Fujimotout sensei 0: I was like the only one that I knew of except of Joan and Clarissa in my class. Our teacher is Aoi Miki yay. LOL. She's really really cute! hahah.

青井先生はとでもかわいいですよ！

when I got to the classroom, it was the filming equipment there all outside the classroom. All of us suffered a heart attack and tried to think like okay that's not our classroom, we should have seen wrongly or sth, but it wasn't. It was like our class. so we went in, then got this 4 lights blinding us. weird. then through the i don't know the 1st hour(?), they filmed our class. yeap, complete with the crew, and the video camera-like thing. Creepy. I not sure why they filmed this but i think they scareded Aoi Sensei i dk what. aiyah damn weird jiu dui le. LOL. But 3 hours 15 min of Japanese, was harder than I thought. But okay lah, still acceptable. didn't fall asleep. Oh i'm sitting next to Yu Jun (she's also from Fujimoto snesei class last time.) She's nice :D
Haha. Our new lessons was about cooking lessons, so we learnt how to say like er chop the onions kind of thing. LOL it was funny. Aoi sensei even brought pans and pots there. Small ones of cos. hahah she was so cute lor. Her actions damn funny, she almost tripped over clarissa's bag (!)

These are pictures I took cos i thought they were so cute!
Look at the onion!

Hello everyone, this is yo-san!
Lol, Aoi sensei drew this and named it yo-san.
The drawing immediately reminded me of benny.
haha, style of drawing is the same (!)
LOL. and when Aoi sensei had to clean Yo-san off the white board, she went," Sayounara, Yo-san!" rofl.
so kawaii~ hahaha

walked/hobbled home as my leg was in pain. damn freaking pain i tell you that's why skin is so important to us. without skin, you'll just have to hobble justlike a lao tai po -.- lucky it didn't bleed or anything.

oh vivien's just fine in her new school. It had just awaken in her a strong and powerful urgue to complain. Isn't that a fine thing?

Oh and my darling brenda was sick again and coughing like a lao tai po. Get well soon okay!

对不起，你还是我的好朋友。

2009-01-04T14:23:00.003+08:00

Hello, i'm back!
The first day of school was kinda weird.
My hair was weird -.-
Carina was surprisingly earlier than me, so i turned out to be the late one -.-
Apologises ah. but it turned out that she only slept for like 20+ mins(?)
Anway, I felt dumb cos i have like 6 juniors this year but i don't even know a single one of them or even their names or faces? Didn't go and check. Aww man, isn't that called dumb or what? Can any kind soul out there who knows tell me?
Still cannot get used to the term "sec 2s". Theo kept calling us "Sec 2s!" but i was like um, "You sec 3 le, 老了!" And after that, she kept quiet hahah.
My form teacher was of cos the reowned yls.
But my co-form teacher was Mr Kuo, ohmygod.
He was really polite today, without all the XXXXs, but i think we'll hear them soon enough.
Changed seatin arrangement, sitting next to Charmaine now.
We have the same shoes ahah~
Oh yah, saw Sherena again. How i miss Toot. Muhhahah~
okay gotta off le.

2009-01-01T21:05:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow's a new school day(!)
Meeting up with Carina to go to school hahha. Hope she's able to wake up on time!
Vivien, all the new best for your sec 1 school life! love ya~

Jiayou everyone, let's face 2009!

oh ponya's so cute!

あけましておめでとう黑皮牛也

2009-01-01T13:18:00.002+08:00

I'm going to watch Ponyo whooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.
PONYO PONYO PONYO PONYO PONYO PONYO (!!!!!!!!!!)
whoo i'm so excited!!!!!!!!
going to watch ~~~~~~~~~~~
hahah. but going to the Golden Village at Yishun(!!!)

2-0-0-9

2009-01-01T11:10:00.002+08:00

☆╭┐┌╮☆°．﹒
╭┘└┘└╮∴°☆°
└┐．．┌┘───╮∴°
╭┴──┤HaPPY ├╮
│ｏ　ｏ│牛YEaR │●°
╰┬──╯　　 │ ∴°﹒
☆ˍ|ˍ/ˍˍˍˍˍ/∴☆
祝2009年心想事成
あけましておめでとう黑皮牛也

Wishing everyone a HAPPY NEW YEAR!
though it's a bit late(?)

♥

2008-12-31T22:38:00.003+08:00

Gake no ue no Ponyo Theme Song - Hiragana Lyrics
ポニョ、ポニョ、ポニョ、さかなのこ
あおい　うみから　やってきた
ポニョ、ポニョ、ポニョ、ふくらんだ
まんまる　おなかの　おんなのこ

ペタペタ、ピョンピョン、
あしって　いいな　かけちゃお
みぎみぎ、ぶんぶん、
おてては　いいな、つないじゃお

あのこと　はねると　こころも　おどるよ
ぱくぱく、ちゅぎゅ、ぱくぱく、ちゅぎゅ、
あのこが　だいすき

まっかっかの　ポニョ、ポニョ、ポニョ、さかなのこ
あおい　うみから　やってきた
ポニョ、ポニョ、ポニョ、ふくらんだ
まんまる　おなかの　おんなのこ

Ponyo Ponyo Ponyo, it’s a fish kid
It came from the blue ocean
Ponyo Ponyo Ponyo,
She is a round bellied girl
Peta-peta pyon-pyon
How nice to have feet! I’ll try to run!
Migi-migi-bun-bun
How nice to have hands! I’ll try to hold hands with!

When I jump with her, my heart dances along
Paku-paku chu-gyu, paku-paku chu-gyu
I love her so much!

Ponyo Ponyo Ponyo, it’s a fish kid in red
It came from the blue ocean
Ponyo Ponyo Ponyo,
She is a round bellied girl

[EDIT]Lyrics for the Ponyo. Credits to Carina Kam Zhi Qi! Sorry for forgetting to do so!)[/EDIT]
whoo i want to watch ponyo. but my dad say not tmr cos expensive. but i cannot go watch with carina cos er, my brother later cannot watch. it's unfair to him. ):
aiyah, saturday/sunday then go watch bah! :D

31 Dec 08

2008-12-31T22:18:00.002+08:00

Today's the last day of 2008.
wow. this year has been the year of many changes for me.
new school, new class, new friends.
At one point of time, I almost didn't think that i could make it through 2008 at all, but ah well i did.
This year has been a year of ups-and-downs and I've grown through it （I guess)
Now let's just hope that 2009 will be an even better year okay?
Hurray!~~

2008-12-29T21:29:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 100th POST! For a moment i thought I wasn't going to make it but well here I am!

My very own 100th post(!)
Suddenly very 有成就感。I made it yay! ohman, i think i'm going to cry NOT. heh.

Today did practically nothing except sort out my room? now very clean and neat. wahahahaha~very 有成就感 also. Didn't know that my room could become so neat, but i'm also wondering how how it will last. (Normally it will probably turn back into the ruin it was after like a few days?!) But I'm praying that it would last (but then again, probably not, so it's kinda like hoping against hope)
Today I got A Litre of Tears DVD for my late Christmas present whoo(!) I watched only the fron part but it's already very nice :D going to keep watching it. I find the girl very pretty.

whoooo.

182 天的倒数要开始了。

2008-12-28T20:53:00.003+08:00

Today they are going back to Malaysia ):
They have already reached Johore, probably preparing to take thier coach.
Here I am sitting in the now empty and noticeably quieter house, feeling equally empty inside. ohmygod, I think I've grown too use to their presence. I miss them(!!!) I want to go back to Malaysia. It's like so sian that 2009's coming le. it's coming way too fast. I don't want it. I hate the earlier parts of a year cos it's like we have to do everything all over again. It's always repeating ):
Oh but I wanted to go watch Ponya on The Cliffs on 1 Jan o9. It seems really nniceeee:D

Feeling emotional now, should go watch A litre of tears. It's quite nice♥

别一直这样嘛! 原谅我啦，我是真心的哦。

2008-12-27T00:46:00.002+08:00

Whoooo it's after Christmas already ): though today's called Boxing Day, if i'm not very much mistaken.
Today didn't really go anywhere. Went to the Woodlands regional Library with cousins lalala. Borrowed MANY books cos now can borrow 8 books during one card. Then went off with 婷 to Bugis to buy a belt for 二姨 and a kiddie watch for Jayden. Walked around for abit, got bored pretty soon. Went upstairs and bought twin bracelets with 婷 but idk if it's really a bracelet cos like it's too big for our wrists. weird -.- but it's okay for a bracelet. But mine now is broken already ): Must go pry it open hmpf. Went home to eat dinner and tada, that's my day in a nutshell.

Oh and today he got angry :X it was really scary.
Now he's sulking cos he didn't get to buy me 25. He offered to pay for the bracelet but i refused cos it's like broken.

Magical Christmas

2008-12-25T00:19:00.004+08:00

IT'S CHRISTMASTIME!
heh. just went to Orchard today.
Went shopping at Takashimaya S.C. & etc(!)
Me and Wei Theng walked around wearing Santa Claus hats hhah. Got ppl wear this chao-mini santa hat clip-ons.
Bought a top, a skirt (ohmygod, can you believe it?) and a pair of Ripples yay yay.
I saw this cute giant Baby Tigger(!) OHMYGOSH!!! I WANT IT BADLY WHOO.
Anyone volunteering to buy it for me?
Oh today it started raining when we went out to see the preety Christmas lights boo )':
But it was still soo preety (!!!!!!!!!!!) <3

I've gotta go sleep le. byebye!
Have a merry christmas!

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It's Christmas' Eve!

2008-12-24T14:35:00.002+08:00

!
HOHOHO~!
Today's Christmas Eve 24/12/08!

I ♥ CHRISTMAS EVE (!)

Everybody got your presents?
I got a pair of converse school shoes yay yay just what I wanted :D
OH Sherena sent me a Christmas card all the way from London (!!!!!)
She even include a cute (or should I say kewl in Vivien's case?) Candy Cane yay i love toot.
A pity it's a teeny tenny bit broken (whatever ever happened to good mail service?) but it's simply still so loveable.
I've made up my mind, I'm not going to eat it, I'm just going to keep it forever and ever whoo. Might it melt? I don't care lah. <3

All in all, have a magical Christmas Eve everyone! :D

To Brenda and Vivien Toh : I'm still holding your Christmas presents hostage! Exchange conditions: My present heh!

You're the best thing that has ever happened to me.

2008-12-23T11:36:00.003+08:00

OHMIGOSH! OHMIGOSH! I CAN TALK! I CAN TALK (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
Suddenly I feel that being able to talk on its own is a miracle by itself. Though it's not really my normal voice (it's damn rough now, as if my voice broke but it didn't, thank you very much), it's something at the very least. At least I can express myself. At least I can make my intentions known. At least I can say things face-to-face to people instead of having to go directly to the ear. At least.... (!!!!!!!)

I can talk.
Wow.

ｸﾘｽﾏｽの雪。

2008-12-21T22:55:00.001+08:00

Finally got to update again after like 5 days (?).
Okay, there was band camp. In the morning, Benny helped me carry my heavy trombone case to the MRT station yay. Hah. Band camp was fun. Saw everyone again. There was like water games on the 1st day. Got this scissor-paper-stone game that you have to win your way across. But due to the nature of sucking naturally at it, I was the last one left on the other side of the table (you win and get to the other side of the table) but luckily I managed to get across phew. Oh and there was this Water War game thing, I was a Bomber and I kept bombing Clarissa heh (who asked her to wear the bright orange lifeskills camp tee). Then after 2 mins, everyone went berserk and started bombing each other like a bunch of crazy people. Cheryl Tong even went to overturn a pail of water over an unlucky someone's head (!) oh and I got bombed on the cheek by Wanting, turning my whole face wet. Then there was lunch, Wanting, me and Clarissa had pizza (!) whoo. I ate 3 pieces. Wanting too! Clarissa ate 4 pieces o.o lol. At night, I called home heh. LOL. They (Wei Jun, Ting and Benny) were like damn funny :D lalala.
The next day, Micheelle came! Hahahah. missed her (!) She went this don'tknow-where place overseas with beaches (reminds me of Pulau Pangkor) It was like almost full band practice the whole day. At night got night games rofl. Went walking around the school in darkness creepy. Played and played. oh we even walked around blindfolded. Then micheelle was behind me she started shaking me, talking weird stuff and even massaged my shoulders (which was damn sore cos I didn't bring anything to use as pillow).

Then The next day I went back early cos need to go chalet le! Sorry wor, Jo, Val & Yun Jia, I could not attend farewell ): Sorry.
Er. Then I went home and got a hearty welcome rofl by Ting. guess how she did it? She went to lock me up in the service balcony ): What A bad Person (!) And I was left there for awhile -.- lalalallala. We went to Chalet. The 1st day was like nothing cos we all went late grr. BBQ-ed and ate blah blah lor. The 2nd day we went wild wild wet whoo. It was fun whoo. I <3 the Big Slide Thing. Oh and The Tsuanmi, the Shiok River and The Foam Pool heh. FUN FUN FUN (!!!!!) Okay lazy to say details anyway.

Now Ting watching the 不良笑花。She watch then occasionally laugh (or should I say cackle?-.-) like a witch rofl. Benny's lamed out by my side cos I using comp. ohmygod. He just hit me with the computer mike . Got this crack sound when it hit my head -o-

Oh and now I've got no voice sobb. Totally no voice ohmygod. Sian. Idk why must keep talking too. Ohman, I want my voice back! Anyone who sees it around, please return it to me immediately.

5 more days to Christmas.

2008-12-21T22:01:00.002+08:00

Here's another story from Wei Theng. Enjoy!
[Actually this is just to fill up the space heh :D]

珍惜自己的所爱

世界上没有後悔药

妻子是个小尾巴，我走到哪里她都要问到哪里.
我厌烦，她却乐此不疲。
可是，这个小尾巴却在那个下着大雨的深夜永远消失了.

我的心情非常难过，内心充满了内疚和痛楚，我无法原谅自己的过错。

结婚那天,老婆用买戒指的钱给我买了一款手机。

那天夜里,我们两人在被窝里一遍遍地调试着手机
的响铃.我们觉得,生活就像这铃声,响亮, 悦耳，充满着憧憬和希望。
从那天开始，我常常接到她的电话：
'老公，下班了买点菜回家。
'老公，我想你，我爱你。
'老公，晚上一起去妈妈家吃饭。
'我的心里十分温暖。
有一次，我忘了给手机充电，又恰好陪领导到基层，应酬到半夜才回到家，
推开房门一看，我发现老婆早已哭红了眼睛。
原来从我下班时间开始，她每隔一刻钟就打一次电话，我都不在服务区。
老婆更加着急，总以为发生了什么意外，后来每隔十分钟打一次，
直到我推开家门，她刚把话筒放下。
我对老婆的小题大做不以为然： '我又不是小孩子，还能出什么事情？
'老婆却说有一种预感，觉得我不接电话就不会回来了，我拍拍老婆的脑袋，
笑了：'傻瓜！'不过，从此以后我一直没有忘记及时给手机充电。

后来我升了职，有了钱，手机换了好几个。
突然有一天，我想起欠着老婆的那枚戒指，便兴冲冲地拉她去商厦。
可是她又犹豫了，说：'白金钻戒套在手指上有什么用啊？给我买个手机好吗?
我可以经常跟你联系。' 于是我就给她买了一个手机。

那天，我们一个在卧室，一个在客厅，互相发着短信息，玩得高兴极了。

一天夜里，我和同事到朋友家玩牌，正玩在兴头上，
老婆打来了电话：'你在哪里？怎么还不回家？
'我在同事家里玩牌。'
'你什么时候回来？'
'呆会儿吧。'输了赢，赢了输，
老婆的电话打了一次又一次。外面下起了大雨，
老婆的电话又响了：'你究竟在哪里？在干什么？快? 乩矗?
'没告诉你吗？我在同事家玩，下这么大的雨我怎么回去！'
'那你告诉我你在什么地方，我来接你！'
'不用了！'一起打牌的朋友都嘲笑我'妻管严'，一气之下, 我把手机关了。

天亮了，我输得两手空空，朋友用车子把我送回家，不料家门紧锁，老婆不在家。
就在这时，电话响了，是岳母打来的，电话那头哭着说：
'她深夜冒着雨出来，骑着自行车，带着雨伞去我同事家找,
找了一家又一家，路上出了车祸，再也没有醒来。
我打开手机，只见上面有一条未读留言：
'你忘记了吗？今天是我们的结婚周年纪念曰呀！我去找你
了，别乱跑，我带着伞！'她走在找我的路上,永远不会再醒来了。
我泪流满面，一遍遍看着这条短信息，我觉得那一个晚上我输了整个世界。

老婆去世已经3个月，可我仍然无法从噩梦中醒来，
我不想工作，整曰消沉萎靡，并且一次次想到了陪她而去

转贴此文章的目的,就是要大家都学会珍惜！
不要让爱你的人受到一丝一毫的伤害！不要等到失去了，才痛不欲生！

说好的幸福在哪里。

2008-12-16T13:33:00.003+08:00

Hello, I'm back in Singapore like what many of you wanted heh. But I really wanted to go back cos no is not really like holiday like that )': but whatever I'm already back.

Arrived like 8am yesterday morning. The coach darn slow idk why. Kept stopping grrr. but we managed to arrive and blah blah. Settled down, went to eat breakfast. After that, played around for a bit. Benny couldn't believe that we got a free laptop for buying a modem rofl. But he next year also buying a laptop himself (cos he's going to study computer) LOL. but the internet here is much faster than back in malaysia. According to him, it's like over 3x faster o.o
Went to Northpoint cos my mom needed to discuss the chalet food with the other aunties. so we had macs for lunch. wah i like idk how many weeks never eat macs le. I <3 Milo yay.
Walked around somebit cos got like a new extension (?!) The library was damn cold. but quite big wor. The guys immediately went to aracde (where else will they want to go?). Oh northpoint the arcade changed location. A lot of places I also dk where.

Went home first cos the bunch of aunties were still happily chatting away, judging by their conversation, they go off-course like a lot of times -.- not sure they even touched on the main topic. Rained, dad came and fetched blah blah. Came home, ppl hogged comp. Oh and my mom bought 命中注定我爱你。婷 they say very nice wor. idk though (-.-) watched norbit on 56.com rofl. Damn funny show.

Then today went to Chong Pang to eat my favourite 手工面(!) yumyum. all 6 of us ate. The lao ban niang was like so happy (practically beaming) when she heard the request "六碗面!" After that went to the market and bought like 2 shorts (one purple one white) The white one even came with a belt(!) Came back and so i'm like here blogging though i'm suppposed to be bathing (!). Benny's fooling around with my Kumakuma turtle, making it nod its head rofl. He even went to scan it into the printer and te results came out terrible. Kumakuma looked like a monster turtle.

I tmr have band camp, but don't really feel like going. so it's going to be really rushed as i have chalet on the last day of camp so i'm thinking i shld come back on the second night (?) idk though. Rather tired heh.

Oh congee is cooked so I gotta go and bathe! Bye!

现在，我只想和你在一起.。

2008-12-13T23:00:00.005+08:00

And yesterday you said you loved me.

Today's my last night in Malaysia (!) 超舍不得的！)':
I want to stay here! T-T sobbb.

Oh right, yesterday was Chloe's birthday(!)
HAPPY 1ST BIRTHDAY, CHLOE!
Many loves from Joei! -muackks-

Oh and I did say goodbye to you, only that you didn't hear it.

.

喜歡上了，愛上了，就是了。

2008-12-12T14:30:00.003+08:00

婷 showed me this. Said it touched her. So I read it. And I was touched too. So I'm going to share it with you.

[Note: This was originally an e-mail.]

能選擇要不要喜歡上一個人或愛上一個人嗎？

這個男孩太傻，為了一個不愛自己的人付出那麼多！....

現在應該很少這種人嚕..若他就在你身邊的話...記得珍惜他..
曾在女孩的記憶中，有那麼一個人。

「我現在喜歡的人，就是我前面的這位啦！」男孩大聲的說著，指著走在他前頭的女孩。

「神經病！」女孩嘀咕著，快速走開那群跟著起鬨的人群，只當男孩拿她開玩笑。

直到某一天，女孩收到了一封信。

『我是真的喜歡妳！我可以為妳做任何事，只要妳喜欢，我都會去做。
一封信就這樣，沒有署名，短短幾句話，但女孩卻知道是男孩寫的。
『那你能現在跳到馬路中央嗎？』
女孩在信紙背面寫上這句話，託人交給男孩。

「我能！妳看著。」男孩看了內容，當著她的面衝進馬路中央。

只聽見震聾欲耳的喇叭聲、刺耳的煞車聲、巨大的碰撞聲，以及映入女孩眼簾倒在血泊中的男孩。

「我真的能為妳做任何事．．．．．．」男孩的話救護車高亢的呼聲中，依舊清楚的傳入女孩耳中。

「是你們家的女兒要我們家的孩子衝進馬路中被車撞的！」
「胡說！明明是你們家的兒子自己衝進去的！」

「什麼胡說！他同學說的你們不是也聽見了嗎？我們家的孩子是看了你們女兒的信才衝進去的！」
「真的是這樣嗎？」女孩的母親回頭看著女孩。

「嗯。」女孩點了頭，淚水也在她低下頭的瞬間，滴上了那張寫著男孩與她的字的信紙，似乎也企圖抹殺掉發生的事實。

「你看吧！你們要怎麼賠我兒子的人生！他再也不能打籃球了．．．．．．」男孩的母親歇斯底里的大喊，哭倒在醫院冷硬的地板上。
「這．．．．．．」女孩的父母無言。

「我要你們的女兒陪著我的兒子，直到他再也不需要她的時候，這是你們女兒欠我們的！」男孩的父親說。

「不行！她不愛你兒子啊！你不能那麼自私！」女孩的母親不捨女孩受這種罪。

「好，我會陪著他。」在眾人驚訝的目光中，女孩答應了。

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在公園的躺椅上，男孩和女孩靜靜的坐著，輕柔的風撫過他們疲憊的心。
「為什麼喜歡我？」女孩開口了。

「能選擇要不要喜歡上一個人或愛上一個人嗎？喜歡上了，愛上了，就是了。」男孩淡淡的說。

「如果有一天我有喜歡的人了，你會放我走嗎？」女孩說。

「我從來沒有綁住過妳，是妳自己不放自己走的。」男孩說。
沒有交談了，只有風吹動落葉的颯颯聲。

男孩說對了，兩年前在他醒來後，他就解除了約定，但女孩始終將自己綁在男孩身邊，她愧疚，因為她的一句玩笑話，毀了男孩的夢，男孩再也不能打籃球了。

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然而故事卻不會永遠都是好結局，女孩的心給了另一個人，沒有給肯為她付出一切的男孩。

「你為什麼當初要聽我的話！你怎麼那麼笨！」女孩跪倒在地上哭泣。

「我．．．．．．只是愛妳。」男孩說，伸手想將女孩扶起。
「我不要你的愛！」女孩甩開男孩的手。

「你的愛太強烈，害慘了我，你知不知道啊！你知不知道啊！」女孩歇斯底里的哭喊著。
「我．．．．．．」男孩說不出話來。

「為什麼是我！為什麼是我！你為什要愛上我！我討厭你這樣！我討厭！討厭！」女孩用盡所有力氣大聲嘶吼，轉身跑了出去。

女孩的愧疚太深，她沒辦法打開心結，她因為責任而留在男孩身邊，直到她喜歡上別人了，她再也不能忍受不能和喜歡的人在一起的日子，所以她崩潰了，然而也傷了男孩的心。

女孩使勁的跑，用力的跑，淚水模糊她的視線，心中的煩亂讓她沒看對她迎面駛來的卡車．．．．．．
「小心！」伴隨著警告，有人推開了她。

熟悉的碰撞聲響起，再一次，女孩回頭看，再一次的看見倒在殷紅的血泊中。

「我真的能為妳做任何事．．．．．．」男孩說，嘔出一口血，昏了過去。

「不要！」女孩受不了再一次的刺激，她尖叫，使盡所有力氣的尖叫。

「太遲了，肋骨插進內臟，內出血止不住，沒救了。」
「那麼年輕就．．．．．．難道真的沒辦法了嗎？」

醫院裡的人議論紛紛，句句傳入女孩的耳中，她的淚水決提，濕了她的襯衫。

如果她當初能理智一點就不會發生了，如果男孩不要愛上她就好了，她哭，哭的歇斯底里，因為這次男孩真的要離開她了，他現在只能等待死亡。

「我想妳應該進去看他．．．．．．」男孩的父親說，他的悲痛清楚的寫在臉上。

「好．．．．．．」女孩語不成聲，她只能不停的流淚。
女孩進了病房，見到男孩蒼白的臉，她淚水流的更兇。
「不要哭．．．．．．」男孩心疼的舉手擦拭女孩的淚。
「你好傻．．．．．．」女孩哭個不停。

「或許吧．．．．．．這個給妳．．．．．．」男孩張開緊握的手，一封沾了血的信。

「這是最後一封了，好好的看好嗎？」男孩說，眼角留下一滴淚。

「好．．．．．．」女孩接下那封信，清澈的淚水滴在信封上，混著暗紅乾涸的血。
「我真的能為妳做任何事．．．．．．」

這是男孩的最後一句話，他再也不能待在女孩身邊，他走了，女孩昏了過去。

『給最愛的妳：

愛上妳，多半是痛苦，我知道妳的心永遠不會交給我，可是我還是好愛好愛
妳．．．．．．

當初如果知道我的行為會讓妳無法自由的飛，我不會去做。
妳知道嗎？只要妳高興，我真的能為妳做任何事。

我知道當妳看這封信時，妳已經有喜歡的人了，放自己自由好嗎？

不要在強迫自己留在我身邊，我希望妳能活的快乐。

不要問我為什麼那麼傻。

能選擇要不要喜歡上一個人或愛上一個人嗎？喜歡上了，愛上了，就是了。

我會一直守護著妳，因為妳是我最愛的人，我真的能為妳做任何事，不管過了多少年，我都不曾改變。』

女孩收起了信，她的淚水已經不再流下，男孩離開她已經五年了，五年的時光也讓她從一個年輕的女孩蛻變為成熟的女人。

女孩的命，是男孩救的，但女孩的心，自始自終都不曾落在男孩身上。

『能選擇要不要喜歡上一個人或愛上一個人嗎？喜歡上了，愛上了，就是了。』

在蔚藍的天空裡，風裡似乎帶來男孩的低語。

女孩不能選擇，男孩也不能選擇，谁都不能選擇。

!♥

When you hold my hand, the world feels so right.

2008-12-12T13:48:00.004+08:00

whoo just out from a very satisfying shower. I tell you Herbal Essences Lavender shampoo simply rocks man! It really works for my hair rofl, now very smooth and soft. -一脸陶醉ing - And their advertisement is really creative you know the one about this black guy with curly hair then he uses this shampoo recommended by a shopkeeper then he goes back to complain cos his hair turned totally straight, soft and silky? hahah. good one. The smell's really nice too. Mmmmmh.

Okay enough talk about shampooo, you know 婷, Benny and Wei Jun they are coming back to Singapore with me (!) and staying until after Christmas yay. I'm going back this Sunday oh and by the way May who told you I went back already? I'm stilllll in Malaysia as you can see. And I don't really want to go back seriously ): No hard feelings though. I cannot believe that I have been here so long already (nearly 3 weeks!) and I'll have to wait for like 6 more months to come back again sob. I really love it here! you would too if you were here. LOL. Benny was like so 心急 to come to Singapore he started packing yesterday night lol. Hha, he even called to ask 婷 what did he have to bring. So anxious eh? It would be good to have them there. At least we won't have to say goodbye so soon. But I would still have to go for band cannot really accompany them. it would be the 1st Christmas I will spend with them yaay. So it would be really special♥

Oh and tomorrow the whole Ho family(Danny, Derek, Uncle and Auntie Ho) will be coming to Penang the island part via cruise and we're like supposed to meet up with them idk how. weird. Anyway we don't really talk do we? Though I do miss playing soccer with them. Aha, the good old days. but we seldom do it anymore.

Sometimes I feel that growing up is really a rather sorrowful thing. when we grow up, we lose the most precious things we have. We also lose the ability to get happiness from the simpler things in life. We lose bonds, friendships. We also lose the ability to just be simply happy cos there's nothing better to do. We lose the magic in life totally. Sometimes I really just want time to stop. I wonder if when I grow up I will remember the joy I got from playing soccer, or just having a good laugh. Will I ever remember the feeling of being pure and innocent? when we grow, we lose many friends. Some just leave no means of contact, some just go away. I wonder if 10 years from now, I will still be in conact with the people I love now. Or I won't even remember their faces. It's a really sorrowful thing to think about. I don't want to lose anything I have now. I'm really afraid to lose everyone precious to me. that's why I started saying that all my cousins must have a gathering next time when everyone's grown up, like those my mother and her siblings have now. I don't want to lose anybody. Please know that I love everyone of you out there. I really do. Time must move on of course it must and does too. But in some point of your life, please stop and try to remember the happy and troublefree times you used to have, the simple treasures in life you used to enjoy, and the many people you used to love so much. You wouldn't want to miss or lose any of those precious moments really you won't. So please try to remember and treasure them now before it's too late. Before it's time to say goodbye, as there's no such thing as a final goodbye. Goodbyes are final.

Dance like you have never danced before.
Sing as though no one can hear you.
Love as if you have never been hurt before.
Live as if heaven is on earth.

I really love these few lines. They really say it all. If you can do all this, happiness is surely yours.

一个人撑伞，一个人擦泪，一个人好累。

2008-12-10T22:45:00.005+08:00

Back here at 婷house. Went to stay at 大姨家 which was this big big 2-storey house whee. It was like so fun fun fun. 大姨 has like ohmygod like idk how many dogs damn cute. Genny, Benny, Adrian, 婷 and Wei Jun stayed too whee like an awesome sleepover. It was the best! 婷, Benny and Wei Jun and me slept outside on the second floor in the sorta of like a second living room place. We took the Ps2 from 婆婆家 and plugged it there. So we like practically just lazed around the 2nd living room playing ps2 and the occasional DS and PSP like a bunch of lazy pigs the whoole day. It was like fun even though we got bored of games -.- Lost terribly to Benny at the puzzlebubble game grr. Then Ah Jun went to play this weird Chicken Little game (!) and the rest of us watched it boredly. We played and played and played. Then night came. Benny forced those who sleep outside toghether with him to stay up all night rofl. then 婷 close her eyes and try to sleep then he go knock her head rofl got this cracking sound heh.
So no one could really sleep i also kena the head-banging thing. 超痛的！hmpf. so we like stay up until 3 plus until i 撑不住了and fall asleep. then 7plus wake up le heh. 大姨very nice to us wor. She cooked this おいしい朝ご飯 for us yum got eyes, baked beans yes yes you get the idea yumyumyum. LOL. so it's like this damn fun funfun stayover.

OH my mom went to thailand so i got new shoes, clothes and a necklace whoo heh so happy (:
okay goota go soon go popo house whee.

明明不可以爱上你，却情不自禁。

2008-12-03T01:17:00.002+08:00

Hah. i'm back and I changed my blogskin and i relinked people! Wow. Even I myself am amazed heh.
Quite like this blogskin rofl idk why either. er, i think i should change my url soon. hmm....worth considering. Hey i realised that my blog looks weird in mozilla firefox -.- weird. alignments wrong?

I am currently waiting for Inuyasha episode44 to load. freaking slow D: but its nice nice nice lor. i like it idk why. oh and i am sure you guys would have noticed by now, I nowadays like using chinese to type a lot ley idk why too. umm...I'm thinking sbout opening a chinese blog all of a sudden. Well I just might might might....

Oh today went to the main island Penang to have dinner with 三姨.Went to this place something like Little India back home but much more Indian(?!) Got this real cool Indian Restaraunt(sp?) there.

二姨went too! Saw Benny, Johnny and Genny whoo. Hah, then the Benny whom that day when I told him that he had sunburn said he didn't feel pain so it was not sunburn but his face was like so obviously pink, said his face was peeling like a lobster hhaha. It was painful throughout his exam rofl. Johnny also had sunburn and was recovering too. Genny still quite black rofl.
The restaraunt served metal cups of water. Then Benny 自作聪明 go say that it was for washing hands before eating. But my mom pointed out that that was only the tradition for Malays so it turned out that the cups of water were simply cups of water for drinking lol.
Then while waiting for the food to arrive, my mom said this lame joke. it happened like this:

面包为什么和Donut打官司？
......
因为面包去告Donut嘛！
全场肃静......这笑话冷到......
.

rofl. then the food arrived . We ordered many different types of prata to try.
And ohmygod, it was unbelievably delicious! OH and there was this type of prata with cheese in it. LOL Johnny immediately reached out for it. 真不愧是cheese王! Food rocks my world! Oh and throughout dinner I was laughing at Benny cos his pink face looked really funny rofl. Just the thought of it makes me want to laugh.

After dinner, went to this Gurney Plaza. Walked walked abit, bought a tee. Benny and Johnny had on this identical sian face heh. Guys simply don't like shopping:D But soon the shops all closed so we went out wanting to go look at the sea (this shopping centre near the sea) walked there and all we saw was muddy ground -.- cos it was during low tide and the seawater receded back a lot. so we sat there and chatted hhah.Talked about handphone, smses, gans and anime lol. Then had to go back already. Took 30 min to get back so now I'm here blogging whoo.

Er. Wei Theng is now using my phone to chat cos hers no battery. Oh i'm supposed to call Benny on the phone as some kind of test (?!) How I wish I could sms and call my cousins on my phone lor. hmpf.

おやすみなさい♥

2008-12-01T20:51:00.028+08:00

Your breathing, my lullaby♥

whoo i'm back from my trip to Pangkor Island! It was so super unbelievably fun yay![Note: Contary to popular belief, Benny went to Pangkor Island tooo. Hence the total was 12 people whee.]
Heh but the journey there was like damn long; about 3 hours(!) and we had to take a boat/ferry there.
OH and the main import of Pulau Pangkor is salted fish/seafood yum! OH and the first impression I had of the island was like "Whoa, they sure like pink vans!" Cos there was this whole street full of well you guessed it, PINK VANS(!!!!) But they were actually tour vans, used specially to drive tourists around the island.We stayed at this Sea View Hotel which was like totally lousy (-.-) but still livable and the good thing was it was like directly next to the beach whoo so just walk down and you've reached the sea yay! There was a swimming pool in the hotel.
29 Nov
we went swimming in the hotel swimming pool. Quite fun lalala cos quite long never swim already. Ben refused to go down into the water. Then went to the beach there and 挖洞 hah. But cos it was like high-tide this time of the month so we had to keep shifting our holes up the shore. it was damn funny cos we spilt into 2 groups; girls and boys. benny decided not to participate. then idk why johnny whenever it is needed to shift the holes up, always shift until much higher than us (Wei Theng and me). And we kept shifting the sand to each other's hole-digging site. Hah. then benny walked over said that our hole no 艺术风味 so he decided to help us thus we were winning. then Wei Jun who was in the other team, rushed over to join our team hhaha. betrayer lols. Then after that, bathed, hired 2 of the pink vans and went around sight-seeing. niceeee, sitting inside the van was very 的凉 though no air-con. got quite a lot of places, like 万里长城 only that it was so small until become 一里小城 rofl. oh and there was this battlefield still left standing from when the Dutch attacked the island cool. Also got quite a lot of temples. walked walked walked the whole day, had dinner (seafood of cos) yum and we went night-swimming. this time Benny joined us. and we invented a kind of Fetch-the-Lighter Game which was lame but well. Hah, we are a crazy bunch ain't we? ♥s. then went to sleep lor.

Yesterday
Whoo this day was the best. we hired thisdriver of a boat to take us around in the sea. damn fun. summore the uncle very cute, he purposely swerve the boat to the right and the left. he also went to dive and brought up a sea cucucmber and sea urchin. the sea cucumber was damn gross it started spewing out its insides(!) gross. but the sea urchin was cute! its spikes can move up and down(!) hahahah. when he went diving he go say look got whale, then he went down and spewing water out of his snorkelling tube. hahahah.then he showed us the naturally-formed rocks and there was many shapes like an elephant, mermaid, fishhead, turtle etc. damn cool lor :D then we went to this place to dive whoooo. i lovin' it. diving was so so fun and cool. we used the most basic diving gear only, the goggle-like thing and the snorkelling tube. but it was soso fun! diving simply rocks rocks rocks！wah but the 1st feeling you will have when you go down is wah salty man! we all tasted seawater and salty until speechless lor. At first very not used to the equipment and then slowly got better. got many many really pretty fishes so niceeee:D　threw bread for the fishes to eat but if you try to feed it by hand the fishes all run away. simply the best expierence ever!♥♥♥ we also went to this other smaller island. the beach is even preetier than pangkor island can you imagine. the sand was so fine that if you grab a hand full of it, it will just flow out of your hand. the water also damn damn clear. ohmygod, i ♥♥♥ that shore man! I want to go again. We began to dig holes again hhah. tried playing beach volleyball. but the ball we had (not a volleyball) was too light cannot play properly lols. After thaat, we went swimming in the pool (again -laughs-) bathed, then Benny, Johnny they all had to leave already as Ben had his important exam(accounts!-faints- 加油哦！）And then we went to sit the bannana boat. quite fun lor. hah when we fall down from the boat whoo.

Today
Morning went strolling on the beach. picked many many preety seashells even dead coral(!) Then after awaile, walked walked around summore and went back le. Aiyah, having said so much, left the photos do the talking!
(Click to enlarge, hover please :D)

hahah. That's all for now too! till next time!

2008-11-27T23:43:00.008+08:00

Hello there, missed you.

That's all for now. Bye!

2008-11-27T23:21:00.002+08:00

Sometimes I wonder, if there was someone out there just like me.

[Note: Those in underline are my cousins)

whoo i'm here in malaysia blogging.
heh. Am currently having the time of my life here yay.
really really love it here. it's like this alternate universe that I have a place in. A paradise with nothing to remind me of my other life in Singapore. No stress, no nothing. Only pure fun whoo. Sounds good no? Plus (and this is a big plus) there's great great おいしい food here lah. Heh. Micheelle, penang lasksa yes? though i haven't eaten it yet but still. たのしいです。

oh and i'm going to go to this chalet on this island yay this saturday. 3 days 2 nights. really looking forward to it whoo! but i guess benny will not be going cos he's got his important exam boo. but johnny will have come back from genting lucky lucky him cos he's in concert band (too. plays the trumpet) and they went there to perform. All in all, it's still going to be fun. today i'm staying at my 三姨家 . hah. and i'll be sleeping with 婷 yay.(who is currently engaged on the phone and from what i can hear, having a conversation you don't want to the contents about)

I ♥ my cousins to doomsday come!
They simply rock yes yes.
Yesterday was my 外婆's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
Shall upload the photos I have currently.

Ohmygod, I think I can simply forget I ever lived in Singapore.

2008-11-17T12:47:00.002+08:00

Oh my saviour has come
MsK smsed me again.
I'm putting this up in case there are any poor souls out there like me-

The formula for trapezium;
1/2 x sum of parallel sides x height!

halleluyah!♥

2008-11-17T12:44:00.001+08:00

AHHHHHHHH!
Does anyone know the formula for trapezium? I'm dying over here. ppplease.
HELP-

2008-11-17T11:59:00.002+08:00

smack smash smash clap hit hit hit bang boom booom bang click slap

Heh.
Just smsed Kam Zhi Qi to ask about the bag and shorts I ordered together with her from her sister. Supposed to come like idk how long ago but still not here.
And I was surprised to find that MsKam was stilll in bed and was woken up by my SMS(!)
Ohmygoodness. Now is like 11am plus already and she's still sleeping(!)
wow.
I told her to stop sleeping cos later she will turn into a pig.
She went,"oi sleep can grow taller one leh."(?!)
This kind of logic also can? But aiyah, give up lah carina, you sleep for another hundred years also cannot grow taller one lah. Oh and i did tag on your blog. Blek.
Heh. then she say I caused her to cannot sleep anymore and went to eat(?)
(eat+sleep doesn't that sound like a certain mammal metioned earlier?)
Then chatted zzz. Asked her why she stopped watching D-Gray Man its nice.(refer to tagboard) She say she got bored. I concluded that she stop watching was because she not happy that Lenalee was much prettier than her so she stop watching.
And I was scolded You Head.
Heh. Oh her hair turned out weird according to her. See, you should have listened to my advice and cut botak. Botak will never go wrong one. Just cut cut cut until no hair left. And I'm fairly sure that you would look nice in that.
She haven't even started the 58 freaking algebra questions(!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
I'm dying over that man.
Micheelle too. though she's gone a bit mad and keeps going wee wee wee wee. Get what i mean?
OH yeah. I'm starting to really like the cheekopeh smiley. so damn funny(and looks like Micheelle)
er. I think i have been spending a little toooo much time posting when i should have been doing the 58 freaking algebra questions die. I shall go wash my hair now.

Just so you know, this post was meant to infuriate MsK.