2. 6. 8.

i nv imagine these numbers would be so important to me.
a important part of me.
it's a bit weird.n offical too....
a bit disappointed, no doubt...
a bit glad... haiz...

i was not actually very shocked or surprised when the results were announced..
it was like a part of me had actually knew, KNEW, dat everything was goin to turn out liddat.. seeing it on the screen only made it seem more real..

i noe it's like sort of a setback.. but it's gonna be good.. i gonna make all these good... the best of it.. isn't wad i am supposed to do?? i tink so...

goin to nanyang... not raffles.. dunnoe why din wan go rgs... i a bit biased i noe =P *laughes*
i gonna do very well in nanyang.. make it better than raflles.. haha. hope so bah..

i din cry at all. okay.. mebbe juz a bit bahs.....cos.. everything is finalised... this is fate.. i trust fate. i luv the way fate folds and opens out. so i trust dat it is goin to make the best for me...

everything is lyke clouded in mist.. lyke a dream... lyke nthing actually happened...a long dream dat i juz woke up from....

i muz get into nanyang cos i don wan go St. nick... i o so very biased against it... bad hor??
nowadays feelin very emo. donnoe why....

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa... everything in dotdotdotdotdotdot..........................................
lawlls...wish everyone happiness in their schs.... wishing all youguys will be better than me... i really love you guys more than i love myself haha.. it ain't a very hard thing to do....

life being liddat infuriates me.. i wan stuff to happen you noe?, happen... adventures.. important stufff to happen... life is so slow... i wan stuff to happen.. big stuff...i wan to be in a life-n-death situation making choices.... not like this... it's weird..

i wan stuff to happen to me.. i weird hor.....i wan to live with a simple purpose yet essential..
living juz to survive..... is important.. so i will wan to live....
i wan to try 10000000000000 types of lifes.... experiences....i wan to be part of something big...
to have burdens dat matter you noe......i am bad.... donlike me....i understand stuff.. stuff dat you would not expect me to understand... like how to be selfless....like how good cannot exist juz by itself dere must be bad... if not dat good is unhealthy..

but noeing has no use at all. i can onli wait for stuff to happen. and dat is killing me...haiz... my harrt is broken from the inside...bleeding from the inside cos i noe too much, ppl hu noe too much.... will try to give others the best... suffer by one else.... it's killing me.. noeing stuff .... giving happiness to others is very taxing..... my heart is crushed.. providing for all...... i am tired..
i am hurting myself... to give others happiness....

this is weird.......................... hate myself..................................................................................